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i'm not dead! :D

omg hey guyyyyys

i totally didn't forget that wattpad existed-

not that anyone noticed that i was gone anyway LOL

so here's a little life update in case anyone does care:

-my best friend maya found a boyfriend and they dated for a good like two months before he called her like three weeks ago after ghosting her all day and dumped her saying he got bored and tried to blame her for it bc the night before she sent him a long text while she was having a panic attack, which she normally does, and basically went on a hysterical rant about how she couldn't even take care of herself and she was sorry that he had to deal with her

AND THEN HE SAID HE LOVED HER FOR THE FIRST TIME AT THE END OF THE CALL

ONLY TO SAY HE NEVER CARED ABOUT HER THE NEXT DAY WHEN SHE SENT HIM A REALLY LONG BUT MATURE TEXT SAYING THAT SHE WAS GRATEFUL FOR THEIR TIME TOGETHER AND SHE KNEW THAT SHE WASN'T IN THE RIGHT HEADSPACE TO CONTINUE THE RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM ANYWAY AND SHE REALIZED THAT SHE NEEDED TO WORK ON HER OWN MENTAL HEALTH

but it's ok bc she's been annoying the living shit out of me lately anyway and i want to punch her so i don't really feel that bad

-idk how i'm supposed to go back to school on monday when i've had a week break like this for thanksgiving like bro i'm literally so close to dropping out but the thought of getting to escape my family during school after i've been stuck at home with them for a week sounds really good

-i'm so fucking scared for all region tryouts on monday and i have to miss winterguard callbacks for it when i can guarantee that i'm not going to phase anyway (for those who don't know we have to learn three short pieces of music every year that's like specific to each instrument and then when you go to audition they'll pick a section of the music for you to play and they'll randomly put you in rooms with players from your same region that play the same instrument and you go in order of the number they give you to go to the front of the room and play the section of the music in front of everyone while the judges stay anonymous and they'll score you out of 100 and whoever plays the best and gets the highest score phases to the next round of all region and they also have to audition to get into a special all region band that literally only has one concert the entire year and if you phase from the second round of all region you go to all state which is like the highest level)

and on top of that my private lesson teacher told me that i was doing really really well with the music this year and i had a slight chance of phasing if i practiced hard enough and i stupidly told my mother so she took it way out of proportion and told my entire family so now i have way too much pressure on me to phase

-but i did get a new pack of bandanas for my dog hunter and there's one for like every holiday and season and he looks so cute in them

-and i should hopefully be getting my drivers license soon as in like in a couple weeks as soon as we get out of school for winterbreak on december 16th so wish me luck

-yes i am 17 years old without my drivers license stfu

-but anyway i've missed you guys and if you want to chat and catch up just message me on here and hopefully i'll see it soon love y'all <3