Just Friends

Chapter One: First day of class

Ch1. JF

As I walk into my first college class, my anxiety is through the roof. Is this gonna be the same as high school? Am I going to make any friends? Hell, am I gonna make it through this semester? All these questions are running through my mind as I sick in my seat. I look around the huge class room and began to count the seats. I do that when I'm nervous. It calms me and takes my mind off the anxious feeling in my body. As i count the seats my eyes fall on a familiar face and my face lights up. It's Jaycari, My best friend since the 2nd grade. As I stare, I watch him look around the room.He can feel someone's eyes on him, as he searching slowly trying to see who it is. Finally our eyes meet and his face goes from curious to relieved. When our eyes meet we both smile and he waves me over to come sit next to him. I look around trying to figure out how I'll maneuver to him within this big auditorium known as a classroom. I had never seen a room so big in my life.
As I began my journey over to him my anxiety resurface through my body. I began to tell myself, "Be cool Kia. It's just Jay. Remember lil jay. The one that use to be 7 inches shorter than you, and would always steal you food at lunch. Yep that still the same Jay." I do this pep talk every time I see him.  See Jay and me go way back, like I said we've known each other since the 2nd grade. We've always had each others backs. Well that's is until we got to high school and puberty hit me and him so differently. I always knew Jay as the skinny short kid who loved sports and was hilarious. When we got to high school that short skinny kid, became strong 6'2 football player. The thing was that while Jay was at football camps and in the weight room that summer, I was not. When I got to high school I gain Double D breast, a donkey booty and a little stomach to match. According to my momma, I was blessed but according to everyone else at school I was fat. Now, I always was a little larger in the chest area than other girls and I was a early bloomer too. By the time I was 10 I was in a B cup. Crazy right ! But when i got to high school people started to let me know how different I was, even Jay. Now I always liked Jay from 2nd grade on up, but I only saw him as a friend or a brother. Like I say we use to look out for each other and defend each other when the other was being bullied. When we got to high school though things changed and not necessarily for the best. He became a star receiver at our high school and I became the but of my so called friends jokes. We began to run in different  circles and it became apparent that he didn't need me looking out for him. But i still did even when i felt he dropped the ball looking out for me. Not just our relationship changed but my feelings for him grew into full blown love and that train has continued all way to college. I don't know why I play these games with myself and still find my self obsessed with given what he did this past summer. Even with that disappointment , some how, every time I see him I get nervous, but I have to remind myself that he's still Jay behind all the glitz and glamour. That's still the guy that use to always try and make me smile when I thought I was having the worse days ever. He's still Jay and beside I always have to remind myself, he made it clear that he will never see me more than Just a Friend.
As I continue to walk over and give myself a pep talk. I notice the class starts to fill up and more and more people began to take there seats. As I get closer to him, I realize he's not alone. I reach the seat and hug him. Whew Chile he smells so good and Expensive! As I'm hugging him, I become encapsulated into the moment. My eyes began to close as I think about how much I missed him and how much we both have changed. In the hug, I relaxed I hadn't seen him since his graduation party 4 months ago. Whew Chile, that night was a night to remember and one I won't forget. As my eyes start to open the moment is tainted when I see a light skin girl with mixed blonde and brown hair staring a hole into my face. Has she been there the whole time, I thought? The whole time I was walking over there I didn't even notice that someone was sitting next to him. I was only focused on him and my pep talk. Nothing else mattered.
As our hug ended I turned my attention from her to him and our eyes met again. This e eyes and Damn, he looked good, I thought as my eyes surveyed every inch of his body. Chill Kia, damn remember we are friends. As I made my way back up to his face I noticed his look was a expression I had only seen once before. His eyes were different almost seductive looking, but I could be wrong. No, I'm definitely wrong, I thought. Remember Kia you tripping you like he him he doesn't like you like that. I kept saying this in my head as he started a conversation with me.
" Hey!  How are you! You look so ... Different!
I side eye him , like what the fuck does that mean. 
He peeps my expression and tries to clarify his statement.
"I meant "Different" in a good way" he chuckles and lightly hits me on my shoulder and then says " you know I wasn't tryna to play you, I was just tryna to say I like the new look"
"Mmmhhhh..."I say with a slight smirk and a side eye. " I'm good," I say with a chuckle. "And well, you know we in college now , I gotta switch it up on these hoes, they ain't gonna catch me slippin'!"
He does a flamboyant had motion under his chin, mocking the  City Girls saying "periodt Pooh, you better step on they necks!" And we both laugh. In the middle of our laugh, we are interrupted by somebody clearing their throat and saying " sorry to break this little ...ummm...reunion or whatever up but I think class is about to start." She then points to the front of the class where me and Jay see the Professor setting up the powerpoint for class. It was the light skin girl beside him who was staring a hole in my face who interrupted. Me and Jay looked at her with a look of disgust for a minute and then Jays expression turned soft. Mine was still stank. I mean who the fuck are you interrupting our conversation. She just ruined my whole vibe. Jay and me then sat down and he turned to the light skin girl and began apologizing.
" Ayo, my bad I was just choppin' it up with a Friend. By the way let me introduce y'all."
Oh, so he knows this hoe! Why am I not surprised? Jay turns to me and says " Kia meet my friend Aisha and Aisha meet Kia, This is like my best friend."
"Like," I think to myself, then I make a mental note to ask him later what he meant. Then I move back to the conversation.
So the rude bitch got a name, I thought, and as Jay was talking I could tell little Miss. Bitch didn't like being called just one of Jay's little "friends."Knowing Jay, they have probably been fucking for some time now, and ole girl think that's her man, but in reality, Jay belongs to the streets.
I reach across Jay to extend my hand to shake hers. You know trying to be nice in all since I really don't know the girl, but then she just stares at my hand with a blank expression and says " Nice to meet you sis but I don't do touching, Covid!" I retracted my hand slowly, side-eyeing her. In my head, I'm thinking, " bitch you know you lying as you weren't thinking about Covid when yo fish lips were around  Jay dick last night. Like, miss me with the bull shit.
Class begins, and The instructor starts talking. Throughout the class, me and Jay are snickering and cracking jokes, while Miss. Bitch kept stank facing us. I don't know why her panties were in a bunch, it was the first day and the professor was only going over the syllabus and possible assignments. No information was being shared so she needed to chill. Every time I would catch her staring, she turns her attention back to the instructor, acting like she ain't doing nothing. See, I can already tell I'm not gonna like this bitch.