Sinful Indulgence (Destiel)

Tigers eye

" Castiel wake up" an all too familiar voice spoke " I'm up," cas said  groggily and opened his eyes " Gabriel..." Cas spoke Softly, disappointment strong in his voice, The previous events flooding his mind " where were you?I called for you. I screamed your name. I prayed to you" Cas said hurt, causing Gabriel to look down " they held me back I couldn't help you. I really tried.there were magical handcuffs that would be Good for, ah that's not important" He said sitting down on the bed, a somber frown scratched at the archangels' lips. his brows furrowed and his eyes scrunched . " they chained me up and told me everything they planned to do. Im just glad they didn't film . But hey, you know if you want to be with Dean you can. I will support you " Gabriel said tapping the pad of his finger on his knee repeatedly. Cas just nodded struggling to contain all of the emotions he was feeling. " I don't know what I want. I do want to be with him but I'll be putting him in danger by even just considering it " cas sat up and sighed " oh sweet innocent little cassie, Dean's whole life is danger , if you both love each other why not be with him " Gabriel said in a matter of fact tone . " I don't know if he likes me like that " cas said teary eyed trying not to let the tears fall. " I see the way he looks at you Cas, he's into you probably even imagining you naked in his bed in some nasty positions " Gabriel said and wiggled his eyebrows getting an eye roll from cas. " Don't be inappropriate, Gabriel "

" I enjoy chatting with you but I have to make a call and get home " cas finally said after an hour of chatting with Gabe about Dean. " At least allow me to heal your face " Gabe said and reached his arm up " no, no I'm okay a human...well another human seen them already, it would only lead to confusion . " He said and played with the pillow in his hands  " uh Gabe , can I ask you something?" He asked hesitantly " Of course, what is it Cassie boy?" Cas felt a burning in his stomach almost as if it was eating itself.  "Do you think I'm...  Do you think I'm gay? I think I might be " he said letting the tears that  he had been struggling to hold back, fall down his cheeks. "Woah woah , Cassie hey now. Being gay is not a bad thing it just means you are romantically attracted to guys, there's nothing wrong with that. Those angels are just corrupt and don't understand young love. " He said and patted the blue eyed humans back . " You gotta love yourself, be a little narcissistic. Have some fun . Be yourself, Castiel and if you are gay, accept it and enjoy it, because I accept you" Gabe  said and cas hugged him letting out a soft sob " Gabriel, I'm gay ..." He said after a few moments. Castiel was finally able to  accept and understand his sexuality. Gabriel hugged him tighter " I'm so proud of you" the archangel said.

Gabriel left soon after and cas just sat on the bed, he felt a huge weight lifted off of his shoulders. He Picked up the phone and dialed the number officer Connors have him . " Hello officer Andre Connors speaking, may I ask who's calling?" The man said politely through the phone. " Hello , it's me Castiel, I'm ready to go home. Are you still available to take me?he asked nervous, hoping the guy didn't change his mind " Good morning Castiel. I can still take you, can you be ready in 20 minutes?" Castiel nodded then felt embarrassed because Connors couldn't see him through the phone. " I'll be ready by then and thank you again for doing this , I am so grateful."

Castiel hung up the phone and went to the bathroom. He turned on the sink and started to wash his face and brush his teeth. "I will get to see dean today . I will get to see his green eyes and perfect smile . I will get to feel safe again , but I have to blend in and pretend that I still have my grace. At least for a little while,until Im Ready to tell him, to tell them" He spoke softly as he paced the floor waiting" maybe I should just be honest with him about everything going on the hunt, becoming human , being gay. But I can't , he told me not to go on that hunt yet I did anyway , he won't be happy about that at all. He probably won't be happy about my feelings, should I still tell him? Does it even matter"

His words were cut off by a series of knocks on the door " Castiel don't be frightened it's Me " officer Connors said and cas opened the door  " I'm ready, also I've been thinking about what you said last night " cas spoke as he grabbed his backpack " I am Gay . " He said smiling proudly ,earning a chuckle from the officer " congratulations , that's great. " Cas smiled at Connors' response and the two of them got in the car. " My Dean has an incredible car , it's an Impala " he said and the guy started to drive. " That's a great one , what year ?"  Cas smiled " 1967, it's black and he keeps it shiny and working perfectly, it's very respectable . He has named her ' Baby' it's adorable actually" Cas said smiling as he looked out the window " you really like him don't you " the officer chuckled . " Yes. He's been with me through a lot. One might even say my great fall. Before then I thought I had it all, a great job and great family . I didn't realize that I needed to lose all that to find my great family. Dean's brother has always been a brother to me. " The human said, tiptoing around a few of the words.

Soon the two arrived at the airport and Connors bought a ticket. He hugged Castiel. " Hey man please be safe out there and you get home to that Dean and you tell him how you feel and cherish the moment" the officer spoke with a hand on his shoulder .Castiel nodded " I will, thank you for everything .I can't tell you how happy I am and how much I appreciate you doing this for me ." Castiel hugs the guy once more before boarding the plane.