may 14, 2015: 7:50 PM
may; almost summer break
The best month and the worst.
In a few weeks, school is going to be over and summer vacation will start.
June 3rd.
Me being the most sentimental person on the planet, I cherish the month of May.
I don't want school to end knowing that in three months later I'll be a junior, knowing that in two years later I'll be graduating high school. I don't even want to think about what happens after that.
If I could just have one special power it would be to stop time, to stay in this exact moment. I'm not saying that right now is pretty fantastic but it sure beats the future.
What I'm trying to say for this chapter, is I don't want to stop being a sophomore.
I was having the same problem last year with never being a freshman anymore. But now it's with sophomore.
I don't want to enter the next year of school knowing that I'll be older than the freshmens and most of sophomores.
I kinda liked it how a lot people say how young I am, how in the group of my friends I'm so young, how last year in this one class, where most were seniors and juniors, I was a freshman.
I don't know. I love being the young one.
But I know it can't be like that forever.
For that same reason I'm always feeling like I have some sort of mid-life crisis but it's strange because I'm only sixteen.
I really wanted to a child prodigy or something.....
Anyways, that's why I feel like I want May to last. It's like a piece of me is ending...
But May is making it hard for me to feel something for it. It turns out that most work should be given on the last weeks of school.
I'm probably the only who hasn't turned in their research paper and I had more than two months.
I never read the book Bless Me, Ultima and there was a test today covering the whole book.
I was nominated to be in the National Honor Society. That's great! I had to fill out this form and put in all the community service I have done. *cricket sounds* And all the clubs I'm in and all the jobs I've done. *more cricket sounds* And to kick it all off there was an essay I needed to write. I thought it was all over until I remembered the interview. 10 minutes of smiling and lying through my teeth.
Well, tomorrow I'm going to find out if all that was worth it or not because they're going to announce who got accepted or not.
I think I don't have anything else to say except for the fact that I'm bad at writing. I really digress a lot.
I guess I go on and on and on. I really do ramble so much and don't really know when to stop...
I should just say that this is one of those rare moments that a chapter is going to be this long well because I trail off, a lot.
Just to sum it all up. I wish May would never end and I could stay young forever and that May didn't have so much work.
~ absolutely anxious anna
p.s. there was so many other things I wanted to but was to lazy to make it go that long. for laters, I guess.
