I never would've thought (Sebastian Olzanski)

Chapter 6//She's Gone & I'm Broken

It had been two months since that day in Drama class and even though Nathan and I had been rather distant I was glad we he hadn't seemed so upset with me after a day or so. It was the three of us now; Chloe, Nathan and me.

The house was creepily quiet when I got home. Something is wrong. I looked in the kitchen expecting my mother to be cooking as usual. The faucet had a very light stream of water falling; the last person who used it probably forgot to completely turn it off.

What a waste of water.

I walked over to the faucet and from the corner of my vision saw something red on the cloth in the sink. I examined the cloth; the red looked pretty similar to blood if I do say so myself.

Carefully I picked up the cloth from a side that did not have the suspicious red marks.

As I picked up the cloth by it's corner a rather large shard of glass fell from it; startled by it's sudden appearance I dropped the cloth down in the sink and noticed several shards of glass was dropped along with the cloth. I wonder how someone even broke a glass that rarely happens in this household.

Accidents happen, I shrugged it off.

I grabbed my backpack and ran upstairs straight into my room. I released the heavy backpack on the floor with a loud thump as it hit the hardwood floor. I wonder where my sister Allison is.

My hand reached out for the doorknob but a familiar pink sparkly sticky note caught my attention on my desk. I walked backwards and held up the note.

Dear Jessica,

 

Hey it's Allison as I am pretty sure you guessed already. I really want to apologize because I cannot take this hell we call home anymore. Our family is really falling apart now and sure I am still "young" but I can hear those fights mom and dad are having. Sometimes I feel like it's my fault. Maybe I am not doing well enough in school and they are always yelling at me nowadays if you haven't noticed. I heard them talking about me the other day and I just feel like a total disappointment. You probably think I am going to commit suicide but I can't do that to you or my friends.

Wait I don't even think I have any friends left.

What am I doing wrong Jessica? Why are all my friends leaving me too? Am I too ugly? Am I mean? Why do I ruin everything! I can never do anything right. I hate myself. Everyone (except you) hates me. I really cannot do this anymore Jessica. Goodbye.

 

Love,

Allison

 

The tears didn't hold back from falling violently. I felt myself collapse to the ground this is not what someone calls family. She's leaving me because maybe I couldn't be there for her when she cried. Isn't it also my fault she's leaving?

No not leaving; Allison left.

Unable to bear the weight of all these troubles I cried even though I knew it wouldn't make anything better.

We were supposed to have a proper family.

Not this dysfunctional piece of shiz.

Not where your parents fight almost every single night.

Not where your little sister runs away because she feels unwanted and unloved. Hated by the world.

What hell am I living in?

Oh wait it's called my life.

Why does this happen to me? What have I done in my life to deserve this crap? I felt the tears stream down harder as I struggled to breathe. I managed to inhale in between the desperate cries that filled my small room.

We were happier back in Wisconsin. We never should've moved. Never.

What happened to the happy family in the family portrait in Allison's room? The family portrait...

Some crazy instinct made me hurriedly elevate from my position of the floor and ran to Allison's room. Glass was shatter across the floor and the portrait torn.

Maybe we never really were a family.

Maybe my parents just did a better job at hiding the hell we always been going through. 

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Okay I'm not sure how long this chapter is on your device but it was pretty deep. I think, I tried my best don't blame me. XD. Thanks for reading let me know if it's too rushed or if it's okay? I hope it's not too rushed now... Now I am freaking out. Oh wait maybe it's because I skipped dinner. Oh well. Don't forget to comment, vote, and share!

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-Tiff