𝙍𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙨 𝘼𝙧𝙚 𝘿𝙚𝙖𝙙 - 𝘽𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙡 // 𝙅𝙞𝙠𝙤

A Walk

~Niko
We were lying on Joonas' bed. Porko was already asleep and I had been fidgeting for about an hour. Emotions were running high, but now I knew it was only going to get better. I was furious with him that all this resulted from such a stupid situation, I was also angry with myself, because if I hadn't drunk so much, nothing would have happened either. It doesn't matter now, none of us can change the past. The most important thing is that everything is clear now. Tomorrow morning I'll ask him what's next, after all, he has to stop worrying so much. I turned to my right side. I moved a little closer to the blonde and tried to fall asleep. We were lying back to back. I snuggled higher into the white silk sheets and fell asleep. I fell asleep thinking that it's all fine already.

Suddenly I felt a big soft thing fall on my head
- Get up lazy! It's already twelve o'clock. - Porko threw his pillow at me.
- You throw a pillow, I'll spill coffee on you! - I said jokingly jumping to my feet, because Joonas was grabbing a glass of water probably with the intention of pouring it on me.

~Joonas

- What are you thinking about, huh? - I asked Niko standing next to the bathroom.

- I didn't bring my stuff, and I don't have much to wear.

- There are some of your clothes on the bottom shelf in the wardrobe, you probably forgot about them. - I replied walking to the kitchen.

Niko was taking a shower and I was making a breakfast. Not the best, because the usual toast and coffee, but always something.

- What's for breakfast, chef? Sushi, steak or caviar? - he chuckled looking at my half-burnt toast.

- You wouldn't do better. - I rolled my eyes as I sat down at the table.

- Joonas. - he looked at me as if he was waiting for permission to continue, and I lifted my head as if I allowed him to. - You need to do something about the fact that you're still morbidly worried about me. This comes under trauma.

- I know, I was thinking about therapy. - I stirred the coffee with a teaspoon. - But I have to find someone good for me, give me time, I'll manage for sure.

- We'll manage, yes. - he lifted the corner of his mouth up.

~Niko

While sipping my tea, I remembered.

- What do you mean with Joel? - I looked at him and he got up from the table. - Porko. I asked you a question. - I got up after him.

- Doesn't matter. - he went to the window and said nothing.

- I know you have a problem with him. - I did not give the blonde a step.

- Niko, I'm just fucking jealous.

- But-

- But nothing will change that you will now assure me that you love me, I know. It's about him, not you. You don't see it, but I do, he stares at you the same way I did when we weren't together. With desire, and at the same time knowing that he can't have you. This makes me furious. I love Joel like a brother, obviously, but I can't stand it. - he leaned against the parapet.

I looked at him being angry and feeling sorry for him at the same time. On the one hand, it was terribly upsetting that he was constantly making up some fairy tales that didn't happen, on the other hand, it must be hard for him with it all. I need to talk to Joel about this.

- We'll go for a walk? - Joonas asked, staring at the falling rain.

- It's raining how do you want to go for a walk? - I asked.

I hugged him, he was obviously so lost, we sat on the couch, he lay on my lap and I, drinking the rest of my coffee, ruffled his hair. We stayed like that for a while until Porko jumped off the couch.

- I'll go for a walk myself. - he said putting on a leather jacket.

- Okay? - I replied surprised.

~Joonas

Joel fucking Hokka. My dearest friend. If you look at him like that again, I swear I'll gouge your eyes out. It was raining mercilessly, all soaked, I walked confidently to Joel's apartment. I was almost there when a moment of hesitation caught me. But eventually I entered the block and knocked on the door.

- What are you doing here? - Hokka opened, still in pajamas.

- We have to talk.

- Come in, you look like a wet dog Porko. - he laughed.

I took off my jacket and shoes and followed Joel into the living room. I leaned against the wardrobe and started talking.

- It is visible. - I said in a firm voice.

- What?

- You think I don't see you staring at Moilanen? - I crookedly smiled.

- What the fuck are you talking to me about? I? On Niko? He's your boyfriend, I wouldn't dare. - he replied confused.

- Wouldn't you?

- He's handsome, that's a fact, but I don't want anything-

- What did you say? - I was angry.

- Joonas, get a grip. He's yours, I wouldn't do such a bad thing to you.

- What if he wasn't mine?

- You're trying to frame me, get out of here or stop it. - Hokka came closer to me pointing to the door with his finger.

I glared at him and walked towards the exit.

- You still blame me for that kiss! Admit it. You're terribly envious. - he said as I left.

- Don't fucking talk about it! - I walked over and pushed him.

- What the fuck are you doing, were you drinking? Fuck it, get the fuck out now! You're judging me implausible as if you had any evidence of it.

~Niko

- What the fuck are you doing? - I greeted Joonas at the door when he returned home. - Nice walk, what's wrong with you, Joel already told me everything on the phone. Look at me when I'm talking to you. - I lifted his chin up to make him look at me, but he immediately turned his head away. - Joonas!

- Okay, I'm the worst, yes, I know, mind your business, God.. - he said going to the bedroom.

- And what are you going to do now, sleep? - I stood in front of the bed where he was lying.

- Yes.

- At 7PM we're all going to the bar, you have 6 hours, although now I'd rather go without you. - I slammed the door and went to write some lyrics.