But why does this matter? Why should I even write this if your never going to see it? Maybe someday I will be over it and show you, but that won't be for a long time. I just don't know how long. Hell I can't even talk to you anymore because of my mom. She said that I shouldn't bug you. But that is okay. I will just let life go on and be the fake happy I am. I will just sit back and hate the ride.
