Why Dad? (Niall Horan FanFic)

Things Change, People Change....

well todays the day ive been dreading, today is the day dad gets buried im so nervous having to stand up on my own and talk about my dad,Harry can't make it cause hes still in Canada doing some charity benefits so ive only got James as support and without my mum there its going to be harder then i thought, as i slowly walk to my wardrobe i pick out this knee-length black lace dress and some black heels that i wore for dads dinner party, as i slipped into some purple lingerie i fixed my hair into a tight ponytail and did a smokey eye makeup as i looked at my little bump in the mirror i was now 2 months
things had been looking good up until dad passed away, James has been very helpful to us by coming with me to mother and baby classes when Harry was away on business, i looked at my phone and noticed it was time to head to the Funeral, so i shut the front door and headed to the Funeral Car where James and my close relatives waited for Me, as we took the twenty minute drive to Westminster Abbey where crowds of fans from all around the world waited to catch a glimpse of the White Coffin which would arrive any minute, i got out of the car and waved at some fans before going inside, as we waited silently the church started filling with Family and Close Friends and of course Simon Cowell, He shook my hand And sat Behind Me as i sent Harry a text telling him i missed him alot and that i was getting slightly nervous but just then i heard someone say the Coffin had arrived and just then James stood beside me and held my hand as the White Coffin was brought up just in front of Me and James Seat as i held james hand slightly as everyone sat down, then the priest went to the alter and began by welcoming everyone and shortly after a speech about how my Dad had sang at previous weddings in the church and how everybody loved when he sang little things so perfectly at this stage i was tearing up by the thoughts of him sitting in his room in the dark drinking himself to death

just then it was my turn to stand up and speak so i slightly smiled and walked up to the alter and look towards everyone, i held my hands and began talking ' my dad was amazing, when i was growing up he used to say how crazy i was during my teenage years and how at one stage he thought i was going to turn out like him' and that was it, i stood there and words wouldnt come out i looked down at the coffin and broke down in tears when James came up and brought me outside and hugged me so tightly then he looked at me and said "hey hey its alright i understand" i wiped my tears and looked at him "he's gone James he's gone" i blew my nose and took a deep breath as everyone came out and headed for the cemetery, James held my hand as i got into the Funeral Car and looked up at the clouds and imagined Dad and Mum smiling at me and being proud of me for being so brave today, just then i got a text from Harry saying he's got a suprise that will cheer me up so i softly smiled as we got to the cemetery, i got out and seen Harry standing beside a tree in a dark blue tuxedo and a black tie i walked over to him hugging him tightly and softly kissing his amazing lips as we walked over to the spot where my mum was buried, the sun shined down on the open ground as we listened to the priest talk about my Mum and Dad, i watched my four Uncles lower the white coffin down on top of my Mums, i squeezed Harry's hand so i wouldnt cry again
After the Funeral Me and Harry decided to head back to our apartment, i took my shoes off and lay on  the bed as i closed my eyes i felt the baby kick slightly, i sat up and rubbed the new life that was inside me, Harry came and sat beside me and put his arm around me and moving in closer i suddenly i broke the silence by saying "Its not fair, why should i have to lose my Dad and Mum" i folded my arms and looked at Harry who was not sure what to say, he then looked at me and said "well babe ive lost my brother and sister, i know a Mum and Dad is important but i basically grew up on my own" he looked down and wiped a tear from his cheek, i held his hand and slowly closed my eyes not wanting to argue.........