First Love, First heartbreak

First love

I was in second year highschool
The first day of class i met my seatmate named Dwayne he was a good guy we would be chatting for hours about stuff that only we know.

We got really close and then i started catching feelings for him but i could never bring myself to tell him all about it after a few weeks we became distant, he became really cold right after he got selected as a class president me on the other hand was the vice president we got really busy with school and all the responsibilities that were given to us and then we stopped talking, we became awkward with each other and then he got closer with another girl it kinda hurt seeing him treating others the way he used to treat me but who am i to be jealous...

After two months has passed by I've decided to finally confess through a letter which i teared up a month ago but thank God i took a photo of it and then i sended the photo via messenger he then saw it but it was left on seen after 24 hours i asked him why he ignored me i then told him the he should just reject me instead of giving me false hope he replied "ok,im sorry but no." I was still confused so asked him one last question to clear everything "Do you like me, or not?" He just said "you're a good person"

my heart broke into pieces i didn't know what to say so i just said "Thank you, lets be strangers once again."
He then asked if maybe we could be friends but i didn't reply my mind was blank at that time and then the next day came i pretended as if i didn't just had a mental break down i pretended like nothing between us happened but obviously i told my friends i got rejected but then after a few days ive decided to pursue him even though he made it clear that he doesn't like me i guess i prefer loving someone who doesn't like me back in that way there is only 2% chance that i will be commiting in a relationship which is a no no for me, It’s crazy how you can spend so much time with someone, and become strangers in an instant, it hurts but one day i know I'll move on.

"I guess happy beginnings,ends with a sad ending."