More that a monster - Tyler Galpin (Wednesday series short fanfiction)

Kinbott

Just act normal till all is figured out. Just forget about Marilyn and go to Kinbott like my dad said. Maybe she can help me. Yes, she can help me. I grab my stuff and leave the house, almost running to the place where Kinbott and I have our session.

'Tyler, good to see you again.' 'Eh, yeh.' 'Is there something that changed since we spoke for the next time?' 'You can say so.' I said so soft that she did not hear it.' 'What did you say?' 'Eh, nothing.' 'You know that everything you say stays between these walls. This is a safe place.' I want to tell her, I want to tell her so bad. 'I....' 'Tyler no need to hold back, you can say whatever you want.' 'I am...' My mouth opened, but no words came out. It feels like I can't speak about the hyde. A weird feeling grows inside me. My body starts to shake. 'Can I use the bathroom please?' 'Eh, yeah, of course.'

I almost run to the bathroom. I stand before the mirror while grabbing the sink under it. I look at myself, but my face started to change. My eyes get bigger and my spine starts to grow. 'Not now, please.' I said softly while trying to fight the monster that wants to get out. I make soft noises of pain. 'I promise I won't say anything, I promise.' I start to speak louder. 'Please stay in, I don't want to hurt anyone. I stay quiet.' I am begging to myself. 'Is everything okay in there Tyler?' 'Eh, yes. I Just need a minute.' My body changed to its normal proportions. 'I will say quiet.

'You sure everything is okay Tyler?' 'Do you ever have the feeling that you are losing to your inner demons?' 'Tyler, what makes you say that?' 'I just have the feeling that I am so close to losing to this...this inner monster.' 'Tyler, that is not a weird feeling. A lot of my patients have the same experience. In the journey to find yourself, you can have the feeling that you are losing yourself. When you find yourself, you find some parts that you didn't want to find. What did you find, if I may ask?' 'I learned something about my mom. Something I didn't expect to learn.' 'And how do you feel about that?' 'I don't know if my dad knew about this or just kept it from me. This thing is changing my mind. I don't know how to handle it.'

'Have you said no to it?' 'Said what?' 'No. The word is stronger than you think.' 'Say no to what? I can't just delete it out of my brain.' 'That is true, but when you look yourself in the eyes in the mirror when you are having a hard time and say no to yourself, it can help.' 'I will try next time I guess.'

'Looks like our time is up, and I have a new patient after you, so you can go if you want.' 'Okay, see you next Monday.' 'Bye Tyler, you are making some progress. I am proud of you.' You and I see progress as something totally different. This talk helped me so much, not. I can't even talk about it without it coming out.

I go out of the building when I see this girl. Fully clothed in black and pigtails in her hair. She is wearing the nevermore uniform, but it's black. Did they change the uniform?

I am walking to work. I don't know how I am even going to work without losing my mind. All I can think about is the thing that is hiding inside of me. I looked it in the eyes. There were no signs of humanity, it was pure evil.

My phone rings. 'Eh, hi dad.' 'I will be home late, very late.' 'Why that?' 'They found another one.' 'Another bear?' 'No, another body.' There was a silence. I stopped breathing. 'See you later boy.' He hangs up.

I stop with walking. Another body. Another murder. Another victim of me. I walked in the ally next to the street. I collapse on the ground and put my hands in my hair. No, this can't be true, it just can't. I start crying. I am pulling my hair so hard that pieces came out of my scalp. I bang my head against the wall. My shift starts in 15 minutes, I need to pull myself together. You can do this. Even though it is a lie.