Completely utterly sad and alone
down to the bone
my home...
is nowhere to be found
I've drowned
in this pool of tears
oh dear
my eyes
are as dark as the skies
I am space and you are my stars
and without you I'm a blank space filled with scars
completely utterly sad and alone
I fold the napkin no longer dressed in rips and tears grinning at the thought.
I have hope
he gave me hope
"tyler" I say
he's hovering over a notebook
probably his song book
or not I don't know
All I know is because of him I'm being released today,because of Tyler I have hope
"....Today"
"yea,I know stay strong Naomi"
I smile , a knowing smile
"Thanks" I say playing with my fingers
"tyler,because of you I can go home"
he looks up from his book that was to interesting to ignore.
"Thanks Naomi,you gave me a reason to get better. Today Naomi Today"
a few moments of silence pass before I decide to show him my poetry
"here" he looked confused,but only for a minuet
"but"
he trips over his words in an attempt to conquer his confusion.
"I know,I want you to have them"
he smiled glancing at his notebook
"thanks...hold on" he says flipping thru his notebook
adorned with magnificent artwork and sketches,he stops at a drawing of a girl with very distinctive eyes
one is clearly very distraught
the other is much happier
but is also drawn lighter
She's so sad but her eyes are proof she's trying, she's trying to be happy
"this is amazing tyler"
"thanks..you inspired it"
he smiles
and I return it
"txt me sometime MKay"
"but..I don't-"
i hand him a paper with my number.
my sister is at the door
wallowing in awkward silence with the suicidal.
Im brutally reminded of how hard life was..IS
"Becca!" I smile and go to hug her.
she hugs back,but it's weak as if I was a long lost friend she forgot the face of.
im reminded of how I failed her
i failed mom
i failed Vince
i sigh
and pull out of the weak hug
"it's alright" whispers tyler
I smile weakly and he nods
i straighten my back inhale deeply and return his comforting nod
"Becca,this is Tyler"
"hi" she waves and smiles awkwardly
"where's mom?"
i ask, deflated by how distant she was being
"she's home" she says
"ok" I say
"Mom"Tyler shouts
"Tyler"she hugs him
I smile more at them two more than I did at my own sister...
should I die?
