A Guide's Perspective

A friend? Or a foe?

A/N: the timelines in this fanfic are all mixed up, so you can expect things from the year 2000 and above to appear. OocTomRiddle.

Fear- Or plural: fears. What are they?

They are an inevitable and unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. They give a feeling to avoid or be afraid of the cause of it. The cause can be anything, something or someone likely to be dangerous, painful, or harmful toward you. Once such emotion comes, sometimes our brain decides we are unable to take on the threat nor are we able to escape and as a response, our bodies might remain still, unable to move, numb or "freeze". We may feel as if we are not actually a part of our bodies. Experiencing this, leaves an impression on you, however small. Because of this, people choose to avoid the main cause to not experience the same trauma over again. It would be easier this way rather than to face it head on.

In my case, I don't have the luxury to avoid it. If it was possible to describe fears with a physical appearance for each person, this was how mine would appear. In a word, ineffable. Seeing all your fears in one place will obviously be uncomfortable, and hard to describe but experiencing it is a whole other level of discomfort really...

It didn't have a humanoid shape as you would have thought, since monsters imagined by humans at least have a bit similarity to a human's appearance. But of course, monsters don't just come in one shape, they come in anything, whether it'd be shape, colour, object. My fear is a mix of all.

It was a white door, not just any door, but the door of my cupboard. Surrounding is darkness, but in that darkness there were small outlines of eyes and echoes of muffled whispers. The door itself was tightly chained as if it was purposely there to fuel the fear, it is actually... Probably... Behind the door, I could hear footsteps fading away along with joyous laughter leaving me locked away as whoever behind the door enjoys their day out. I looked back and saw the deep abyss glaring back. Usually that would comfort me, I only feared the dark when I was small, well... Smaller. This time, the abyss felt sinister, as if there was something threatening there prowling around, waiting for me to turn my back again so that it could pounce on its prey. Because of this, I felt pusillanimous to fight against it. But I knew I had to try. If it notices my discomfort, it would get stronger. Much stronger than it is now... At least that's the theory, as much as I want to say, I came up with that by myself, I can't since it's in so many books...

I'm getting off track,I know I'm weak against, a lot of people would be weak against what they fear most. All I can do I probably put it at bay, but how do I do that? No.. that's not the question I should ask, it should be how should I do it? I don't need to ask for an answer, there are many, instead I should ask what is a better way to put it at bay.

Maybe use a facade? No.. that wouldn't work, maybe for a second but I'm sure even fears are smart enough to know something's off. So how should I do it? Hmm.... since this is my own core, I should be able to control the objects that appear, right? I just have to be honest. I don't think a cage would work, this monster has been near my core for who knows how long! I also need to find a quick solution... Looking back at the monster, I noticed it seemed surprised? Confused? I don't know, but my instincts tell me so and it has saved my life countless of times.

......

Wait....
 

If it felt confusion.... Then.... Could it feel fear?

Maybe....

But how do I make it feel that?.....

An imaginary light bulb appeared floating above my head as I come to a realisation. What if, I use a facade to scare it? What is something that I'm not afraid of?.... "Ah!"
Insanity! A deranged as I may sound, insanity would work best, I mean I don't mean psychopathic-killer insanity or whatever, I'm thinking of following-an-idiotic-plan-that-has-low-chance-of-success kind of insanity. And I know just the plan. Perfect.