What if?

Chapter 1

Jacob reached over me and pushed open the car door.
"Jake, stay with me please," I asked
"Duty calls, blame the Red Head."
"Call me, Bells." Jacob called to me just before he ran off into the darkness of the forest.
"Okay," I said to myself,
I reached for the key from underneath the mat and unlocked the door. I could hear the slight squelching of my sopping wet shoes, I smelt of sea and sand, my hair was disgusting and knotty, and my body ached all over. I just really needed a shower, so I locked the door behind me and clumped up the stairs dripping wet with seawater. The rush of jumping off that cliff is worth it, but useless. Edward would usually never let me go near a cliff. I wouldn't need to if he was with me, the agonising hole in my chest suddenly reminded me that I love him like he can't ever imagine. I miss him so much it's driving me crazy, if he stays away for much longer I will be put in an asylum.
My nightmares starting to scare me too, but I don't care as long as I know he existed, that he still does. I might look, sound, act and think crazy. But my intentions - to get him to love me again - are normal. I think.
I took off my heavy clothes and stepped into the shower. The hot water heated me up in an instant, I'd have preferred Jacob but I'll have what I can get.
I stepped out of the shower and slipped on my sweatpants and a vest, I guessed tonight was going to be very long.

~*~

Jacob and Edward both looked at me, then at each other. Jacob got mad and pounced on Edward, transforming into wolf-form then they attacked each other and I couldn't bear to look but my eyes were glued to them trying to tear each other up limb by limb, I was crying and my eyes were blurred, but I could still fully see Edward with scratches on his face, Jacob whining a little. My vision blacked out for a bit then I heard a loud yelp which was cut off immediately. I could properly see again, and Jacob in wolf was lying, deprived of life. I looked up at Edward, he looked horrified by what he had done and ran away. I looked back at Jacob, his eyes rolled into his head and blood was oozing out of him and there was a massive tear in his chest. I screamed with horror and disgust at the sight of my Best Friend so still like that on the ground.

~*~

I felt familiar big hands shake me awake. I jumped and stopped screaming but started sobbing instead. Charlie looked straight at me.
"This has to stop, Bells. I can't do this anymore." He explained to me,
"I know, Dad. I hate it! I wish I could do something but I really don't know how to control it. I'm sorry," I said.
"You need to go back to Arizona, your Mom misses you like crazy and I've got so much to deal with at the moment. When it's all sorted out you can come back, just please go for me."
"Wait, what-?!" I started, but I couldn't finish because I saw hurt and distress in Charlie's baggy eyes. 'I need to give him time and space to grieve. It's not fair otherwise.'
"Okay, Dad. I'll go for you" I said.
"Thanks Bella, I know how hard this is for you," he whispered gratefully.