It was never going to be Easy

Nishaat

March 23rd 8:15am

It had been weeks and my feelings for this boy had grown stronger every day. I'm not sure why I feel so strongly about him or why I'm so attached to him. There's just something about him that's pulling me towards him. I need to find out what that is. I need to find out who he is. I want to know everything about him, every last detail. I need to know it all. I need to.

We're writing a test today and I'm stressing about it. I know it might only be English, but If I don't get over 90% for this paper my parents will be disappointed and that's all I need right now.

"Are you guys ready for this paper?", Malikah asks.

We're sitting outside our classroom waiting for Miss Francis to open the door.

"It's just English. No need to worry", Terri says.

"Tell that to my parents", I say and everybody looks at me. I smile to take the awkwardness out of what I said.

We all talk about what could or could not be in the paper. Then we go off topic as usual and talk about random things we saw on social media. I'm laughing at a joke Santino made, as my eyes move away from my friends I see him again. My stomach flutters again and I can feel my face heating up. My smile grows wider and I can hear my heart beat.

"Nishaat, you're blushing", Malikah teases.

"No I'm not!", I shout covering my face with my hands.

"Why don't you just talk to him?", Terri asks standing in front of me.

"I can't. No words come out. He makes me speechless", I laugh.

"Does he take your breath away?", She mocks.

"Shut up", I slap her on her arm.

The classroom opens and we walk inside. We sit down and turn our bodies so it's almost like we're in a circle.

"You need to find a way to tell him how you feel or at least get to talk to him", Terri says laying her face on her chair.

"I want to but no words come out when I try to", I cry.

"Get his number", Tharwah says.

"-Or give him your number", Terri says.

"I don't know what I'm going to do but I'll figure it out", I sigh and everyone turns around.

How am I going to make this work out? How did this even happen? Why did this happen? Why is you're magnetic force so strong?

"Okay class, listen up", Miss Francis speaks. "You are writing today. English I think it is. You'll be writing at 2pm, for an hour you guys are writing. The class will be split in half, so half the class will be writing in this class and the other half in D2. So if I call out you're name your going to be writing in D2. Listen for your name", Ma'am explains.

Ma'am calls up children's names except our whole friend group and a few other children. I'm so glad we're all writing in our form class. The bell rings and school begins.

1:45pm

The bell rings and second break is over. I pack my books away that I've been studying from and put my bag on my back. I wait for my friends to do the same then we walk to class. Ma'am always takes long to come to class so it might take a while. I wonder what grade is going to be in our class?

We stand in front of class and wait for ma'am to open the door.

"Nishaat, look who's sitting there", Malikah says. I look over at the chairs that we usually sit on and there he is. His going to be writing with us. In our classroom!

"Oh my god, no. I can't take this", I cover my face.

"Give me a page. Write your number down on a page!", Melanie says.

"Oh my god. Why do I feel this way. Didn't I say no crush in high school", I cry.

"Love is blind, babes", Mckayla says.

I tare a small page out of my Science book and hand it to Melanie she writes my number down on it. Ma'am unlocks the class and we walk inside. She places us on specific seats so that we don't copy from each other's work. I'm sitting in the third row and Melanie is in the first row. I look around at my friends and there all looking at me and I can feel my face heating up again. I smile and give off a small laugh. He walks into the classroom and sits right in front of Melanie. Melanie turns around and looks at me and smiles.

Do I look nice? Do I smell nice? Why do I care? I'm so scared I think I'm going to cry.

Ma'am sees him sitting in front and tells him, he needs to move away from where he is sitting. She looks around the classroom and sees a seat next to me that's open. "Go sit over there", She says. I look over at the chair on my right and then at Terri on my left. She's smiling at me but I'm trying so hard to hide mine.

I look down at my table and pretend to distract myself. He sits down next to me and places his stationary on the desk. As he puts his bag on the floor his pencil and calculator falls to the ground. I turn to Tharwah who's sitting behind me and she's smiling. "His pencil fell for you", She whispers. I turn to the front ignoring what she just said.

My hand begins to shiver and I move it to my lap so no one sees it. I can literally hear my heart beating. Can he hear my heart beat? Oh my god Melanie was right, I really am falling for this guy.

Melanie

This girl is so adorable. She's actually falling for him. I turn around to see Nishaat and her little crush sitting next to each other. They'd make a cute couple, honestly. Now how do I give her number to him? What do I say? I can't ruin this for my friend. Don't worry girl, I got you.

Ma'am hands out our question papers and we begin writing. I didn't study for this paper and I definitely don't care how bad or good I do for it. It's just English, it's nothing.

The hour goes by so fast and ma'am is busy taking in our answer sheets. This paper wasn't that bad. I'm pretty sure I did really well.

The bell rings and the show begins. Nishaat and the rest of the group walk out of the class and I stop her little crush in front of the door. "Hey. There's a girl in this class that likes you, it's not me though but here's her number. Can you message her please, and please be nice to her because she's very shy", I hand him the paper with her number on. He takes it and gives me a weird look, he smiles then walks away.

I walk towards where the girls are standing. "And, tell us what happened?", Terri says.

"I gave him the number. He looked at me weird but he still took it. Turn your phone on girlfriend, you're going to get a message soon", I say.

"Oh my god, Melanie. I can't believe you actually did that, thank you. I'm going to be on my phone the whole day now", Nishaat skips in front of us.

"Talk nicely, don't be dry", Tharwah says.

"I'll try!", Nishaat shouts from in front of us.

"She's so happy right now", Terri laughs.

"She really likes him, she just doesn't want to admit it", I say.

Nishaat
March 24th 12:00am

Did he message me?
No.
Did I expect him to?
No.
Would it of been nice?
Yes.

xxx<3