I met my friends when I was in my first year in college, well entering college was a bit ... extreme - for me.
The environment there is a bit different, everyone feel so mature because you felt like you already endure all sort of problem and craziness when you where in high school. Every kid thought that college will be a easy-peasy thing. You thought you are smart, talented , pretty and excellent - like in your mind you can all do things.
But when you experience college life, the world there is tough. There are days the you will feel like you are not smart enough, not pretty enough, not talented enough, not excellent enough. Like it was a battle field about finding your worth, your taste, your future and lastly yourself.
But you know what? in that battle field you will meet your comrade ... your companion. The people that will shape who you are, the type of people who will cry and laugh with you in the process of finding yourself. They are you, similar but in different bodies.
You will build a strong and unexplainable relationship with them, You will probably do all the crazy thing with them and mostly the most precious memories you will remember till your old, memories that will not fade and will still make you smile despite its oldness.
But after those years of laughing, crying and finding who you are beside them, you will look back and realized that they are just a part of you, of being who you are today, eventually all of you will take different paths and you will be okay.
Someday you will meet again, on your friend's wedding day, on their children birthdays, reunion, unexpected meet up and on the most heartbreaking gathering, a funeral.
Well, meeting in one of your friends funeral is one of the most painful chances to gather all together, because you will talk to each other while your eyes are kind of watery, sometimes you will remember things you did in school then you will all laugh then after a minute you will all cry again.
Someone death will definitely change you, especially if that person is closed to you. When my friend died two months after we graduated all of us are shock to hear it. It was news to us that we don't want to hear. We know we're gonna all die someday but not as early as our friend died. We pour our hearts out the moment we see him laying on his coffin, It was a sight that is so painful to watch but as adults that is something we have to do. We have to give him respect. We have to accept his death. We didn't know that some of us will die early like how we are cluelessly dreaming of what could we have been in the future after we finish college.
His death change us. His funeral made an unexplainable impact to me and all our friends but we never spoke about it. It was something we all get but we will never talked about.
