I woke up with my eyes swollen form last night.. I took a shower and started my day off as usual .. I knew I was suppose to hang out with my family and them later see tony .. But I just didn't feel like going anywhere today after last night with brandon .... I was determan to do anything to stay home. . I walked into my parents room . "mom, I really dont feel like going anywhere today , brandon and I had a fight last night and I couldn't go to sleep at all .is it okay if I just stay at the hotel and get some sleep. . my mom looked at me with compassion .. "I guess honey , why not .. But are you going to be okay ?? "Yeah I'll be fine just want to rest ... Thank you mom , love you have a good day .. I walked out and layer down in my room ... I grabbed my phone to see if brandon texted back .. And he did ..so did Caleb .. Brandon was first ...
Brandon: babe its nothing .. She was at the lake with johnny last night and she just wanted a picture with me .. That's all it didn't mean anything .. I promise nothing happened ..
I replied ..
Me: you didn't have to post it !!! And I wasn't thinking that something happened ..but now I kinda am .. You know I don't trust her .. I just started trusting you again from last year. .
I looked at Caleb's message ..
Caleb: heyy , are you still meeting me at the pool tonight ??
Me : maybe I'm not sure yet ... I stayed at the hotel today because I didn't feel like going anywhere ..
Caleb: o really , what room are you ..
Me :hmmm . am I gonna get a stop by from you .?? If I tell you ..
Caleb : no I'm with parents. What room
Me: room 148 level 3..
Caleb : o kool I'm level 2 room 135
Me : and I care y lol .... Jk
Caleb ... Alright fine ... Lol I'll ttyl moms nagging about being on my phone .. I'll ttyl ..:)
Me: lol jk have fun ..
I went back to brandons messages ..
Brandon : babe .. Seriously.. You know I said sorry .. Last year didn't mean anything .. I've changed .. You don't trust me do you ..
Me: I do just not with her .... You hurt me brandon .. And I know you have changed its just ... Im not happy anymore ...
Brandon : ... I've noticed .. How about this summer we take a break and when you get back we can mend things ..
Me :wow ... Of course you would say that ... Fine .. Go have a summer fling with your ex... But I don't know about when summer is over ...
Brandon: I just thought that's what you wanted .. You know I love you Casey .. Your my everything .. I know I made mistakes ... But I'm human .. I really want to be with you ...
Me : well may be taking a break is a good ideal ... I loved you to .. Its just lately things have been different and I need to figure out why .. So when summers over we can see where things go .. Okay ..
Brandon: okay .. I guess I'll talk to you later .. Hey .. I'm sorry if I've done anything ..
Me: okay I'll ttyl .. And it's okay ..
I finally get everything settled with Brandon I just wanted to be by myself. I couldn't stop crying ... I turned on the shower and sat in there still with my clothes on . I hated this . .
