Today I didn't eat. I didn't know why, because I didn't feel self-conscious about myself today or nervous. I guess habit, but I'm starting to wonder if I can stop doing this, because I know food is good. I know also though that my body is literally eating itself from inside.
That boy whatever his name was, told me I'm going to die. He figured out I am anorexic and began questioning me.
"Why do you do this? You're not even fat."
"That's the point. I'm worried I will be and people will make fun of me!"
"That is a lame excuse. Anorexia is stupid because most girls who are aren't even overweight!" I didn't say anything afterwards. It stung inside, categorizing all the girls who wished to be skinny and calling them pathetic. Can we really help our negative thoughts when society praises the attractive, fit people and ditches the not-so attractive and overweight people? You can't say that I don't have an eating disorder for a good reason. We all do.
Mom found out today, and told me to stay away from him. But I won't. I'll see him everyday and I'll tell him how weak he is to make such a comment like that. I'd rather get revenge then take the high road.
I saw Dad curse to himself about how awfully rude teenagers are, but I told him that's saying I am one too. He said "I know." We laughed anyways because he didn't mean in a derogatory way. He was being himself.
I will see this boy, no matter how horrible he is. Only makes me a better person for being one.
Author's Note: Eating Disorders are serious things and I did not mean it to intentionally hurt anyone. I wrote it because that is the type of character I wrote it for. So please, no negative comments on how I think Anorexia is stupid, because I don't.
Thank you!
-lshacool
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Teen FictionA girl struggles within to fight an eating disorder after her father left paralyzed for the rest of his life.
