You Said

Dear Diary

I could have stopped her. Could have said: "You know what? This is bad for you. You're killing yourself and I am too. We have to stop." But I didn't. I let Kara fall, and she did just like me. The teachers were freaking out because it happened once again. With me, and now with her.

I almost exploded when the girl who I punched, Natalya or something, began to speak to me about Kara.

"Figures you guys are friends," she laughed, but I was paying attention to the white tape on her nose, wondering if circus clowns could get any uglier than that. "You both have issues, are losers, and have no friends. What else do you have in common?"

"What else do you and birds have in common again? Oh right, that nose."

"Somebody should shut you up, you little bitch!" Natalya said, utter disgust on her face.

"I'd like to see you try," I walked past her, trying not to over think what she said. Nobody listened to her lies anyway.
And I'd like to say that I ended that day in worrying about my best friend and that's it, but that'd be lying. Because Reece was there, in the hallway.
"HEY! MAE!" he called. "I'm sorry to hear about your friend." He walked over to my locker, and I almost slammed it in his face. I wish I did.

"Damn, you trying to hit me on purpose?" Reece smiled.

I ignored. I didn't want to be treated like shit anymore than I already felt.

"Come on, I'm sorry." He grabbed my hand. "But I can make it up to you."

"What are you implying?" I turned towards him, trying to shake his strong grip on my hand.

"We could go to my place and hang out." Reece winked and my stomach turned into a knot. "If you know what I mean."

"First you fucking judge me that I have an eating disorder and then you tell Natalya I am one and now your trying to hit on me while my best friend is in the hospital severely dehydrated?" I almost screamed, and I also almost slapped him. I wish I did that too, but I knew I'd get in trouble because of his big mouth. "You're pathetic!"

"Maybe I am maybe I'm not." He smirked. "Depends on the day."

"More like everyday," I replied harshly. "Stay the hell away from me, got it?"
I finally yanked his strong grip off, not waiting to see his reaction. I ran off, trying to make it to class while trying to forget that this day ever happened. But I can't. I couldn't. Forever those two people would torture me, and I wondered how many more would find out and how many more enemies I'd make.

Make the pain go away, I thought. Make Kara be okay, make Reece and Natalya fall in a hole and never come out. Make me be okay, stop my parents from worrying.

They're going to find out that Kara has an eating disorder. And they'll assume she's the one who's made me this way and we'd never hang out again. I'll leave her when she needs me the most. But who's to say I haven't already left her.

My life is misreable. Yet again someone taunts me, judges me and makes a fool out of me when I don't do anything to them. To all my bullies out there, one question: What have I done to you?