Secret weapon

Chapter: 3

"Who are you and why are YOU FOLLOWING ME?!?" I said and then he got out of my grip and we faught a bit, they were a skilled fighter but then I was able to pin him to the wall and I put my knife against his neck, he took off his hood and, " Bucky... how- they took you how can you be here I thought you died because of me no no no this just can't be." I started tearing up, I just can't believe this. " First can you remove the knife from my neck while nearly killing me." I then removed my knife. " Now EXPLAIN!" I said while pointing my knife at him. He then said, " Let's go somewhere other than being in an alley." "Uh yeah I was going to the park." We started walking and it was just akward so I decided to say something after a few minutes of walking to the park. " Um so uh what happened uh you know when.." " You left..mhm so they took me back to  my cell and they kept me there with no food or water for 1 week. They brainwashed me after and after about 5 months I was sent on this mission and I got my memerios back and I had a way to escape since hydra was taken down so when I didn't complete my mission and hydra wasn't a problem I was able to leave and I was free to live my life." "Um wow and have you been able to get the words out of your head and be free." Nothing. I get how he is feeling and I shouldn't have asked that. "Im guessing that's a no and I shouldn't have said that Im so sorry Buck." "Hey calm down it's fine and yeah uh they are still in my head and when I was finally free after so many years I wasn't really free cause those words are still in my head and if someone says those words I won't have control over my mind." We were finally at the park and sat on a bench. I said, " I get that but you know you will get there someday, what we went through isn't going to go away or be earased from our memory it takes time to get over all the horriable things, it will still be apart of us but then we will have wonderful things one day in our life that will remind us that how from all that pain we got to where we are, through all that pain it lead us to happiness. " " Yeah I mean I guess you're right, so whatever happened when you escaped." ".... uh yeah I was on my own I didn't know what to do and like about 1 month after, this family found me and took care of me and he's my best friend and his aunt and a bit like family but I lived with them for a year and a half and during that time I was making enough money to have my own apartment because just in case I didn't want to put them in danger and his aunt signed there name for I can live in my apartment since I was only 13, she agreed uh because I told his aunt about what happened most of it at least and she understood suprisingly. And my best friend Peter and his aunt still stay in contact also I nightmares and panic attacks." I know it's hard for me to talk about that but I didn't even know that I was crying, he then hugged me. "Wow that's lot and  you live on your own, it's going to be alright." I swipe the tears away from my face and then I said, " Uh it was great of catching up with you but its getting late and I have to go to school in the morning." " Yea but aren't you to smart to be in school." "I mean yeah but it is a way to put some normal into my life you know." " Yeah and if you every need anything I'm here for you." "I know thank you dAd." I then went to my apartment and I just felt some sort of guilt cause if I tried a bit more he could have been free from from all that pain a bit sooner and then I started crying for like 20 minutes and then I got up, I ate, and watched some tv and then went to sleep.
After the weekend (it was friday)
I woke up and I got ready for school and when I got there I met up with ned, peter, and mj. At lunch it was just me, peter, and mj cause ned had to go home early cause of a doctor's appointment but anyways peter asked me , " What's up with you Dian you seem off?" "What no it's nothing." " Come on Dian we know something is wrong, " Mj said. " FIne I found my dad the one I thought died, not my actual dad, my father figure you know the one I told you guys about." I told them about certain stuff and what ever I told them it was slightly modified like with buck they know his name is James, it is his name so not completely a lie." That's amazing right since you have always wanted to know what happened to him by the fact that no one told you what happened to him." peter said. " Yeah I know that but it's just that I don't know if I can trust myself." I realized that while I was walking to school cause I can put him in danger like last time" what do you mean, " mj said. "mhm" *The bell rings* "Oh well I guess until next time," I said while getting up to leave. I tried to avoid peter and mj or avoid the topic from earlier. After school I went to my apartment and my door was unlocked which I found weird.