Reassurance

5.

I slam the door back into its place, and lean against it inhaling and exhaling heavily, with a smile beaming across my face. I look side to side of my room with the adrenaline pumping through my body, head to toe. The thrill of excitement prickles in my spine.

I push away from the door and spin in a spiral with my arms released from my sides. I spin and spin hoping it will take me to my destiny. I am then tripped by something I left on the floor, and land on my leather lounge in the middle of laughter.

I lay there till the room stops it's rotation, and push myself up. I let the smile seeping on my mouth drop, and my cheeks ache. I gaze around looking at the dark, miserable colours invading my room, and believe that a change is possible.

I clasp at everything in my way, and throw it to the floor. No matter how hard it is to forget the past, the past forgets you. I put everything into a plastic bag, and take it outside to sell. In a couple of, maybe 2 hours, everything in front of me disappears, and the only thing left is a jar of cash.

I run back inside, count all the money I earned and embrace it to my chest. "Now I can live the life I've wanted." I say to myself with happiness in my voice tone.
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I arrive at the shopping centre, and whatever shop I go into, I have a spring in my step, and a trolley loaded with bright fluorescent pinks and yellows and greens.

I exit the shopping centre, and while in my car, I find myself humming to a song I've never heard of before, but makes my mood happy. It must be called 'Happy', because it's repeating that specific word over and over.
•••
I get back to my apartment, and offload everything in my little Beamer.

I arrange everything in my room so it flows with everything else in my room. I take a step back and admire what I've created.
What I've created is beyond what I thought I could, and I believe it will stay like this forever.