MDZS **wangxian** One-shots 💌After Marriage💌

Wei ying's insecurity - very short

It was at the evening night, Hanguang-jun was busy in cloud recesses. Wei ying, he decided to stay at Jingshi wait for his beloved. Wei ying was a little upset lately. He was sad. Sad for what? he didn't even know. He was feeling somewhat guilty and... and.. insecure? He didn't knew, what was wrong. Were these his guts tryna tell him something will be bad in future? this feeling was odd, putting an mirror to the light. He thought it'll be fine. He just needs to go out some nature and earth will make this feeling alright, right? he walked towards the door in jingshi. He slowly opened the door, as always it was an beautiful view outside the Jingshi. Trees looked like they were shaded black, The sky was blackish blue, while getting to bottom, it became dark orange, but for some reason it had just made wei ying feel tired. All wei ying wanted to do was sleep because it was winter and he didn't like the cold winds outside. 

Mad because of no reason, he went back into Jingshi. He went to bathroom, after he was done, he went to sink to wash his hands. There, was a mirror. Wei ying curiously looked into the mirror, He looked a lot like himself, but also mo xuanyu. For some reason, it didn't feel right. Only the faces were matching was anything else? Wei ying observed every length, how lan zhan's dress was big on him, how short he was. He lifted his sleeves. He observed the thin, sensitive skin of mo xuanyu's body. He observed mo xuanyu's, no His thin bones. Was he like that before? Feminine body, all the edges and shapes, they weren't like a man but more like a woman.

For others, the body could be considered beauty (for a woman) but it wasn't with what he grew up with. No, It didn't feel familiar to him, It felt like he was forcefully seprated from his body and after all. It wasn't his will to live in this body. He didn't like it, he wanted his old body back. He was forced to live in it. He sure is grateful to have his lan zhan back with him but it didn't feel like he was with him(wei ying) anymore. It felt like he was with a village, cut sleeve boy, not his lover, not his soulmate and without his body it felt empty, and main question. Did Lan zhan even like him in this body? Did lan zhan actually love the previous soul and the body? but now, it was all... gone. His body is gone. No where to be found. Only those corpses, those corpses know. How could he live with these. He didn't have this type of touch, skin, features all were gone! replaced with something new in its place. 

He slowly started to undress himself, Pointing out every imperfections which wasn't in his body. He hated it, it was good thing it was winter, he got to cover himself more. but why did they sudden occur, they weren't before.. So why? why did they come, so suddenly? With all this overthinking he gently (loosely) puts on his robes and leaves the bathroom. He goes to grab a bottle of emperor's smile (Tiānzǐ Xiào). He settles down on the table. It was late at 7.30 and his beloved wasn't back so it was good. Good to drink after so much mental stress. He didn't need a glass, he took the bottle himself and gulped down half of the wine in a breath. He looked dull, stressed and mostly tired. He kept on drinking unconsciously till the time came.. 

The door opened. Who else but lan zhan coming back at 8. He walked straight out of the entrance. He stopped at the shocking scene, to him. Wei ying was sleeping with a bottle in his hands. He was red very much. and there lied 6 bottles of emperor's smile on the table. After going for a few hours, this much had happened? This felt so much upsetting to him, wei ying didn't normally drink that much. Normally, 1-3 bottles and often 4-5 cups. He sighed, letting go of his shoes, He slowly reached his husband and gently picked him up in bridal style and started walking to the bedroom. To this wei ying, opened his eyes, half. To lan zhan's suprised his husband was awake. He was looking at him all the time. Wei ying said, unconsciously "Lan zhan... don't look at me.. look straight"

"no, look at only wei ying"

"lan zhan... " he spoke cutting the eye contact.  His head on right side. He said, "Why do you want to look at me"

"Wei ying is beautiful"

"no, i am not."

"Are"

"No.."

"..." 

He said tiredly and Lan zhan's slowly rested him on the bed. A tear fell of his cheeks, it was both physical as well as mental stress. He said irritatedly. 

"Lan zhan.. Why do you like me?"

"Wei ying is kind, sweet and good"

"Lies"

"No wei ying is."

"Don't you miss my old body?" He asked in a loud whisper. 

At that time, Hanguang-jun could understand what his lover was thinking. As he was rested down he wrapped his arms around lan zhan's neck.

"Love wei ying's soul, not body"

"hm.. really? then why do you do it everyday with me?"

"..."

That was hard to answer, because our blind, cute wei ying is stupid. Ofcourse the answer was embrasassing how could lan zhan say that his attraction towards wei ying was so strong that everything he did was just making hanguang-jun more... yeah.. But beside that, he also wanted to give wei ying pleasure. That was a secret he didn't let his lover know, because it was embrasassing.

"Love Wei ying all the time"

"Really? what do you think about this body?"

"not important, only wei ying"

Wei ying smiled, "But this dick is..."

"not important"

"hah?? lan zhan! how could you say that! it is the only thing that makes me a male after all! hmph" he pouted angryily. he teased his lan zhan, shame that lan zhan could still be teased wtih his drunken husband. 

"Or perhaps. Hanguang-jun, Lan wangji" he pushed his arms down, sliently ordering his lover to bend. 

"Lan zhan, Lan er-gege, is trying to tell me something else?"

Their lips were so close, small unfelt pecks were on their lips. They're eyes are were deeply in love staring straight into each other. 

"Wei ying..."  Lan zhan gulped onto his saliva.

finally wei ying kissed lan zhan and closed his eyes. Their tongues joined and fought for dominance. On that, lan zhan slipped off his headband and taking off both wei ying's hands wrapped aroung his neck, he tied them in a tight knot and continued. he searched for wei ying's belt but it wasn't there. Oh dear, did wei ying forgot it in the bathroom too? His robes were loose making it 'easy' for lan zhan.

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