SADQA-E-ZINDAGI

25.im not sure🥀

MEHRUL POV
it's been 5 months and my stomachs getter bigger
I'm in the same state I was in 4 months ago
Still angry at sameer and baba

I rarely talk to anyone except zoya whose been the biggest support
I know I've letting everyone off but what can I do
I'm not the strongest myself

Just a little blow and I'll break
'You okay' I hear a voice
I look up and it's bhai
I looked him and nodded
He had a tray of food with him

Sameer comes almost every night but I ignore
He comes and sits on the sofa for an hour or so and just watches me
I've seen the guilt in his eyes
But I feel the pain in me
And there is a vast difference

'Eat' bhai said and raised a bite in front of me
I gave him a weak smile before opening my opening my mouth and taking the morsel in

I've been talking to bhai about divorcing sameer and moving out of Pakistan
At first he was a little skeptical about me moving out of Pakistan but then he agreed

I can see in his eye he wants me to forgive sameer and live a normal life with him
He wants me to live a relaxing and normal live without any type of burden
I've forgiven sameer long ago but I haven't forgotten

Not even a single thing

'I've collected the documents and everything's ready just tell me when you're ready to leave and I'll talk to mama baba tonight' he said and I nodded
'I miss you mehr' he said with his voice breaking a little
'Me too' i I whispered
I miss myself as well

Samiya comes every evening to keep me company and my monthly visits to the doctor are also on

Soon I finish my food and take my medicine
Right then baba barged in the room
'You can't-you can't leave Pakistan- you can't leave me' he said and shook his head not able to process the news
'Divorce sameer and live here
We can move out if you want
but you can't leave me' he said shaking his head

'I have decided I'll leave soon and I'll give birth in Canada as well you guys can come for a few months if you want but that's it' i said and they knew it was final

'I won't do it again I promise but don't leave me' he pleaded
It hurts mentally to see my father beg but he needs to get something or he won't learn

I stood up so he knows I'm serious
'What is it baba that sameer said and I didn't that made you believe him and not me give me just a single reason just one and I will stay'
He kept quiet as expected

SAMEER POV
She's divorcing me and moving out
I don't even have words
I don't know what to do
I feel dead
She can't leave this house
She grew up here

I was a jerk and bastard husband
Nobody else is at fault
Why is she leaving us all

I go to her room and there she was laying on the sofa
Her head looking away from me
He held her belly
No emotions on her face
All my fault