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Justin's POV
I went out of the room feeling a total jerk, I shouldn't have let her go. I never felt so down until I lost
her and I know that things will never be the same even if she forgives me. Some of the people are
looking at me as I walk with my head bowed down, I can read their mind and most of them are
thinking "What happened to this handsome man?"
If only I can answer them, I will tell them that I am already late to have her back. I know that she
hates me for now but days will pass and I know that she will have me as a friend. Daniel is lucky to
have her, actually very lucky I just hope that he won't make the same mistake that I did.
I should have brought her flowers and should have been by her side during her birthday but I can't
leave my brother. If only I call her or gave her gifts then maybe I wouldn't feeling so stupid right now.
"You lost her and there's nothing you can do" I said to myself as I walk going in my car.
I fastened my seat belt and hit the steering wheel with great force using my right palm. I keep on
shouting her name, I really lost her and I can't think of any way rather than to leave her and give up
my life for what is the use of my life without her? She is the breath and air that I need.
If this is a dream, my only wish is to go back to the old perfect days with her where I use to kiss her
on her soft lips as I feel her fragile heart beating loudly. This is the last time that she will see me for
I already made up my mind, I will go to Madrid Spain and let myself be tortured.
Mia's voice is like a beautiful song singing to my soul, as I drive my car with my eyes red and very
teary with the mistake that I had done. Everywhere I go reminds me of my past, the places we went
when she was still mine.
Yes, she WAS mine and will NEVER be again. This pain that I feel right now is too much for me, I
never felt so devastated in my hundred years of living. At least Mia knows that I still love her, I just
wish that she still can feel my presence even if I'm already at hell.
Even if I will burn in hell the feeling that I feel right now is much deeper that it cuts me like a knife,
every pain and emotion I can feel it right now just like a human again. I also want her to know that
she was never a waste of my time and that she is perfect for me just for being herself.
I went home to pack my things, I went to different places of the mansion just to make sure that I
didn't left anything. I went to my room for the last time and saw a picture of Mia and me on top
of my bed, my eyes started to get wet again.
The memory of us still feels fresh, as I look at the picture I remember what happened that time.
It was our first picture together as a couple, her hair is not clipped nor tied. Her arms are around my
neck, I carried her that time as we giggle about how silly we were when we were still kids.
She breathed on my neck and her voice just suddenly dropped, "I love you Justin" she whispered
in my ears. I looked at her, she closed her eyes after saying those words. There's a sincere smile
on her face that time, "I will always love you Mia" I retorted.
What a sham and foolish I was to her during her birthday!
I left the picture and closed my bags and went out of the house before starting to run away like the
wind. I suddenly stopped for I think I heard her angelic voice, "Promise me that you will always love
me". My things just suddenly dropped on the woods, I looked around and remembered our first
date together.
The place looks exactly the same, maybe I'm imagining. I am really sick right now and I can do
anything for Mia is the one and only cure.
I covered my ears and kneeled down on the floor, as I close my eyes I said; "You don't need to
torture me anymore I will die soon. This is the last time that I will tell you that I love you".
Desperate to die, I stood up and went on going to Spain. The wind is even angry at me, I can feel
its touch like I am going to a path where I have to feel all the needles pass through my body. It's
already five o'clock in the afternoon right now here in Madrid, Spain.
Hopeless, breathless I went to the mansion of the fallens. "What a sham!" Beata said as she
drinks a cup of wine and smiled at me like I'm something to eat. I arched my eyebrows just to
let her know that I am not human and that she is not a vampire. She haven't changed since
the last time that I saw her, her hair is still dark brown and curly and her eyes are still scary
to look at.
Ella stopped her conversation with the other fallens after I left Beata and went upstairs, Ella spitted
in front of me and started laughing. I know that I am such a total jerk and I don't need her to
remind me. I ignored her and started to walk going upstairs, the stairs are designed in a spiral
manner and that it has fifty floors.
I reached the topmost part of the mansion, their mansion outside looks transparent. People are
gathering outside of the mansion as they stare at me who is not panting, they began to question
why I am not yet tired despite of the path that I had taken.
My heart is beating really fast right now, I closed my eyes and said "I love you Mia" for the last time
before I opened the door. Alexandria's room looks like an office at the same time library, I looked
around having myself lost in the paintings on the wall and the sophisticated design of her room.
She turned her chair around and smiled at me, "You're just wasting your time here" she said in
her casual tone as she intertwines her hand. I took a long deep breath "I want to die already" I
retorted. She started giggling, "Killing you would be so easy".
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Forget to Renew
Romance"You left me", Mia's mind has been devastated by Justin. Forgiving him easily would be difficult but what can she do if he is really the one for her? A choice has to be made, a story where happy endings don't exist. The last book of the sequel, shor...
