Can't Let Me Go

Chapter 3

Annie's POV

Its been a week.

A week since Calums car accident. They had called me that day, telling me what happened and I was there when there were tubes stuck to him. I was there when his the beeping monitor stopped beeping and came to one single beep that wouldn't end. I was there when the nurses came running in.

I was there when he took his last breathe.

Its weird, really, because 2 days after he passed, I swear I would hear him or even see him in my room. I thought I was going crazy, but I blinked a few times and he'd be gone.

I haven't spoken to anyone since his death, I haven't gone to school all week, haven't really eaten anything. I don't even talk to my own mom, it probably breaks her heart but right now, in these passing days .. I don't really care. I couldn't take it, my heart was hurting, it hurt every time I took a breathe. Just thinking of our time together, all the fun we had .. Damn, I could feel tears on the edge of my eyes wanting to poor out. I don't understand why he has to speed to my house, I even had such a bad feeling about today, but i never thought Calum getting into a car crash and not making it was the whole reason for the feeling.

I didn't know any other way to let out my pain. Wait, I have an idea. I had taken a box cutter from my moms drawer and I've kept it ever since Calums death since I thought I would have to use it, I didn't think I'd have to until now. I hid it in my drawer under all my clothes so my mom wouldn't find it, I got up from bed and walked over to my drawer. I opened it and searched at the bottom of my clothes for the things I desperately needed right now. I found them and closed my drawer, I walked over to my bed and sat down on the edge, ready to carve and express my feelings in a another way. Other than crying and crying all day long. Which I've been doing for the past week.

I looked down on my left arm and told myself. This is gonna make it all better, this is gonna help with the pain that I've been holding inside this whole time. I hesitated a little since I've never done this before, but I've heard that many other kids have done this and they felt good. They felt like this could finally be their escape from whatever shitty life they have at the moment. I looked down at my arm, picked up my other arm, the razor in hand, and set it down right on my arm, ready to finally slice through my perfect skin.

"Annie, put it down please."

I jumped at the sudden voice that spoke. I turned around and saw him.

"Calum?!"

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Sorry its short guys, I didn't know what else to write. I haven't updated because I had no idea where I'm going with this story but I'll figure it out. Love you .x