TWO BIRDS [KPFF]

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I couldn't sleep all night. My mind was too busy to do so.

My eyes were opening and closing in the fatigue, trying to find a way to fall deep in slumber. But I couldn't. My whole body and mind couldn't come to the conclusion of sleeping.

Mark had gone out of the room when he found out that abeoji-nim was asleep. I told him that I needed him here and he wanted to be here too, but if abeoji found him here, we would both be in trouble.

I always wondered, how can one love sleep? Or at least peacefully sleep?

Well, I haven't even slept nicely in ages so how would I know? But it just, it seems so peaceful and alluring. It just makes me want to fall in her soothing and motherly arms.

Wish I could.

I have always seen sleep as a feeling that has to be earned, like a reward. An award. It's when you get rid of all the problems and obstacles of the game called 'life'.

I tried so many ways of falling asleep. Putting the pillow on the opposite side of the bed, chanting the calming songs in my head that help me fall asleep, clearing my head and repeating the words 'don't think' in my mind like a mantra and oh, so much more. But nothing works.

Heck, even the nature tries to cooperate with me.

The moonlight scoops me up in its arms and sways me around, trying to make me sleep. But its sometimes irritating illumination keeps my eyes from shutting and doing so.

The crickets outside try to sing me a lullaby and take me slowly to slumber's embrace, but I do hope they know that their beautiful yet distracting singing disturbs me in my so called slumber.

Ah, I just wish that I could sleep peacefully like the babies and like old adults.

Suddenly, my mind filled with Felix. His freckles dotted its way into my brain and his eye-catching visuals made him stay for a while in my mind.

But seriously, he is so eye-catching. His voice doesn't even match one bit with his face, if I explain further into him. He is so charming in so many ways.

However, why was I thinking of him?

He is always stuck in my mind, well, not always. We don't meet each other much either, just in p.e., lunch, the corridors, in social studies class, and then at the cafe.

But, there's just something in him that keeps him in my mind daily. And over that, he doesn't exit this new little 'abode' of his.

I tried to sleep all night but my head was aching too much, plus, the amount of 'work' my mind had wasn't reducing either, so I couldn't sleep because of that too.

I suddenly sat up and looked towards my bedside table. There sat my cracked and broken yet still working phone, resting on the wooden piece of furniture.

I reached out for it and the cracks pricked my skin. I turned on the phone and scrolled through the apps, searching for Instagram.

Is it a good idea to search Felix up on Instagram?

I tried searching for his ID by searching 'Lee Felix' up. I scrolled through the accounts and none of the people in the profile photos matched his divinity.

And then suddenly, I found his account. Yonglee.xoxo.

What kind of username is that?

And oh, my god, so many people follow him, and he follows many people too. Unlike me; hardly ten people follow me and I hardly follow five people. I just follow Mark, my big brother and sister, and Han.