𝐖𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝗼𝐟 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥

Chapter 10

Theodore

5 days later

"knock!"

"knock!"

I heard a knock on the door, as I laid motionless on my bed while staring at the ceiling. Why does my heart hurt so much? its almost been a week since I last saw Jaelen and she's been calling me non stop since then, and Winifred even tried, but I ignore her calls as well. And my parents even notice my sudden change in behavior. I was just too heartbroken to even care.

Seeing Jaelen except Brandon's offer so easily made me realize that a girl like her has no business being with someone like me and that just broke my heart even more. But even If I'm not alright at least she's with someone who can truly make her happy even if it is Brandon, because that's all I want is for her to be happy.

I heard the door swing open and heavy footsteps approach the bed.

"Theodore? What the heck man. I've been knocking on your door for about 7 minutes. What's going on with you? And why do you look like you just lost your best friend or something?", Kai looked at me confused.

I kept laying there without saying a word. I just want to be left alone. Why won't they leave me be, I just want to stay In my room listening to the blues. That's how I felt inside sad, empty and lost, the music would make me slightly less sad.

"Theodore, man, you can talk to me just tell me what's wrong," Kai said, with a frown.

Theodore, please?"

"Is this about the whole Jaelen and Brandon incident at the club?" He whispered

And I quickly turn my head to look at him. "Please", I softly said. "Don't say her name around me. It just makes my heart ache even more", I whispered and started looking back up at the ceiling. God, this is the worst pain that I've ever felt, and I can't do anything but cry about it. It hurts so bad when you have feelings for someone and you thought that person liked you as well, just to learn you weren't enough for them. So they went and found better, this pain I feel in my chest is worse than any physical pain I've ever experienced.

Knowing I wasn't good enough for her is the toughest pill to swallow and I'm drowning in my own self-pity.

"Hey!, Hey It's going to be alright, man don't worry about it," Kai said, trying to comfort me.

"It just hurts so much". I pulled myself into a fetal position and began crying. "I w-was s-so happy w-with her, a-a-and w-wh-whenever sh-she would s-smile at me I f-felt so complete, and nothing e-else mattered, f-for the first time in my life I felt like it. "N-now I just feel s-so empty a-a-and l-lost wi-without h-h-her", I sobbed.

"Theodore?", he whispered and placed a hand on my shoulder. "You're my best friend, and I hate seeing you like this. I can't say I know what you're going through, because I've never been in a serious relationship before, so I don't know what that's like".

He looked at me with sympathy. "But I can tell that you really care about-"

"I l-love her" I looked at him through my bloodshot eyes. "I've been in love with her from the moment I first laid eyes on her". "And no-now I'll n-never get t-t-to tell h-her how I f-f-feel".

Most would say I was absurd or too young to know what love was. I could even hear my father's voice now. it's nothing more than lust Theodore, what your feeling is just of the flash it well past and you mustn't be weak and given to temptation.