Reconstructing our Family

Best Friend

"Amelia?" I heard Mix's calm voice through the door. "Mel, you've got to get out babe. This isn't going to help you." She said. I just kept crying and crying. I couldn't stop. It was like every time I calmed down, another tsunami of tears flooded in. I was a wreck.

"Bill?" I heard a second voice. "You have to come out of this bathroom sooner or later." Jake. It was Jake's voice. I've been sitting in the corner of my bathroom floor for hours, I believe. After I found Myles' arms wrapped around me, I just lost it. Of course I still love him and I missed him and his arms wrapped around me more than anything but I just can't take this right now. After all my walls that I've built up, they finally came crashing down once he came back.

When I felt his arms around me, I'm not going to lie, I felt safe and happy for a split second, but then after realizations started coming back, I couldn't handle it. So I tore out of his arms and ran into my bathroom and locked my door, with him running after me and calling my name.

He came against the door and started banging on it and that's when tears started to flow and my panic attack started to come to play. I couldn't breathe and I even tried my breathing exercises, but none of them helped. All I was actually focused on was the boy outside of my door and all the pain he had caused for me.

The banging, memories and everything became overwhelming and I lost it even more until I passed out for a few minutes and woke up with him still banging on the door.

Then I guess Mix and Jake heard his shouts and came up and told him to stop because his the banging actually stopped. Then that's how we ended up here. Me in the bathroom, trying to run, run away from all my troubles outside of that door in front of me.

I heard a little mumbling from a familiar voice, and then silence for a bit. Then that familiar voice came back up.

(A/N: Please pretend that Luke was really close to her and that he's like her brother for the sake of this. I'm begging you. Just pretend we've established that before.)

"Amelia?" Luke? He's back? Did he finally come back from his job?? "Little bug? Can you please come out?" I can't believe he's here! This isn't real. "Babe, aren't you going to greet your bud? I missed you, love. I really did and I wanna see you're beautiful face." He said into the door.

Oh gosh, how I missed my best friend. He's been gone for so long. Of course Mix missed him, but I think I missed him the most. He's my brother and I was going crazy without him.

I have to say hi. I have to see him and see if he's real. I need to talk to him. So I stretched my legs and got up slowly. Gosh, I've been sitting on this damned floor for so long and now my butt is numb and my whole body is sore.

I walked slowly to the door and opened the door. There he was.

"Luke?" I said. He smiled weakly.

"Hey little bug." My heart snapped, oh my gosh. My best formed is here. I smiled, a real smile, and jumped onto him and wrapped my and around his neck.

"Oh my gosh," I cried out, "holy shit. I can't believe you're back." I said into his shoulder. He rubbed my back and laughed a his little laugh.

"Of course I'm back, I promised I was coming didn't I? I couldn't leave my little sissy behind, and Mix. Plus it sorta seems like you needed me." He tried. I just smiled a little and then put my head on his shoulder again. He set me down but was still holding onto me.

"Let go sit?" He asked. I nodded. He led me to my bed and waited. Waited for me to speak. That's what I love about Luke, he isn't impatient. He waits, he doesn't rush you and once you're ready to talk, he'll listen 'til the end and then he'll give you his opinion.

I finally got the courage and began talking, "um... Uh... Where do I start?"

"Anywhere." He said and rubbed my back.

I breathed in, "Okay, well um... I just. Ah. Alright, well, Luke, he just came back! He came back out of no where and, a-and expected m-me to take him into my arms willingly. I just-" tears began to fall from my eyes and I felt my throat swell. I'm going to have a panic attack for the second time today.

"Amelia, just breathe." Luke's calming voice said, without a trace of panic. "Listen to my voice. Remember 4,7,8? Breathe in for 4 seconds, hold in for 7, and release for 8. Repeat. 4,7,8. 4,7,8." My breathing became better and regular and he noticed this. "That's my girl. Keep doing it, little but, you're doing just fine." He said and rubbed my back. "I'm going to just get you water." He started to get up but I held onto his shirt and pulled him back. He looked at me and I shook my head no.

"No?"

"Don't leave me." I said in a small voice.

He looked at me and then nodded and sat back down. I put my head on his shoulder.

"Do you want to continue?" He asked.

I thought for a moment and then finally nodded. I poured my feelings out to my best friend up until what happened last night and by the end of my little speech, I was drained. I had no more breath, tears, or energy.

"Wow, little bug, you really are in a predicament." He said with a sly smile. I shrugged. "Well, I may not have the best advice ever, and you honestly don't have to listen to anything I have to say, but in case you might listen, I'm going to tell you, to listen to your heart. But not too much of your heart and add your brain too. Keep your heart and brain balanced, always. Never too much and never too little." Luke told me, while running his fingers through my hair.

"Now, you may not listen to my words and that's okay because this is your life and your decisions and no one, especially me, is going to tell you what to do with them. But just know, that I am your best friend/big brother, and I will always be here to listen to every word you have to say. Even if you don't want my shitty advice, I am still here to hear every word you utter. Even if I'm miles away, that's why we have technology, to call our loved ones and stay in touch with them! So don't you ever dare to hesitate to call me. Okay, little bug?" He said, with sincerity in his voice.

I nodded, "okay."

He smiled and said, "good. Now let's go get to bed, you need rest." I nodded once again.

We stood up and Luke pulled back the covers and I got in the bed and him following suit. He pulled the covers back on top of us and I snuggled up next to him.

"Thank you Luke. I have no idea what I'd do without you. I love you." I said, closing my eyelids.

"I love you too, now go get some rest." He kissed the top of my forehead and I slowly drifted asleep to the steady breathing of him, and thinking about all the things he told me to do. Balance my heart and mind, and listen to the both of them. Both of them are telling me that I have to talk to him and work this out. And that's exactly what I intend on doing tomorrow.

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Omg guys, hey! Im so sorry this chapter is so late!! Damn, I'm just so tired and I was trying my flipping hardest to try not to fall asleep while writing this for y'all. After this, I'm going straight to bed.

Anyways, I actually am pretty proud of this chapter despite me writing it when I was half awake and sleep. Plus, I even made it extra long for you guys, so I hope you enjoy it!!!

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Til next time my loves... Amelia and I both love y'all😘
-mickeyy😁💕