Gotta Be You [Complete]

Chapter 25

Niall’s POV

I don’t remember how but somehow I got back to my place. Everything was a blur, I couldn’t concentrate on anything except the piece of paper clutched in my hands. A letter that could break me, break me into a million pieces and be beyond repair.

I took a deep breath and finally made myself open the letter. And the first line was enough to make my heart drop to my stomach and cause tears to well up in my eyes:

“To my precious Niall,

There are so many things that I need to write to you in this letter. I’ll start off with what has caused me to leave.

I honestly don’t understand how all of you could keep secrets as big as this from me. I was heartbroken. I was humiliated. And, worst of all, I was hurt. I never thought in a million years that you’d lie to me. I thought we were best friends. We tell each other everything.

That’s why I decided to leave. I don’t think I’d be able to handle things with everything that’s happened lately. And I’m worried that I’m gonna cause more problems if I stay. This might not turn out to be the best decision I’ve made but I believe that I need some time away from everything and everyone. But one of the best decisions I made was deciding to go to Dani’s party because that was the day that I met you. And every one else. I’m so blessed to have had all of you in my life. And know that it hurts me more than you know having to leave.

Hopefully, one day, I will come back. Once I’ve straightened out my life and figured things out, hopefully I’ll be able to. But right now, the best thing for me is to leave.

I’m sorry.

Another thing I wanted to tell you is that whatever happened to us, being together after me and Harry broke up and before the accident, I wish that I remember. I’m sure that it must have been amazing because not only would I have had a boyfriend, I would have had you as my best friend also. I’m sorry that I couldn’t remember. I don’t know how you were able to handle it when you had found out that the last thing I remember was being with Harry. I know how hurt you must have been and I hate knowing that. I hated seeing you hurt.

And, again, I’m sorry if me leaving is causing you more pain but I was hurt more than any of you know. It only added to the stress that I’ve kept bottled up from the horrible things that people say about be with the fact that I’m with you and Harry and I couldn’t handle it anymore.

And, last but certainly not least, I want you to know, Niall Horan, that you are one of the most amazing people I am so lucky to have had in my life. You’re my best friend and I loved spending time with you. I love you so much; never forget that. And I will love you forever.

Love always,

Isla.”

By the time I finished reading the letter, the paper was dotted with the tears that had escaped from my eyes. 

She was really gone.

There was an ounce of hope inside of me, thinking that this was all a dream, a joke, a lie. But it wasn’t. This was real. And it hurt. It actually hurts. 

I didn’t know what to do. I don’t know how I felt right now.

I just wanted her back. I need my best friend. I need the love of my life.

I couldn’t keep it in anymore. I yelled at the top of my lungs. I stood up quickly, causing the chair I was sitting on to fall over. I forcefully swiped everything off of the table. I held onto the edge of the table and flipped it over.