Comfort in the middle of the night

Listen to me bunny...

My heart is beating fast and my whole body feels like it can't move. All my thoughts are racing while I am trieing not to start sobbing. The last thing i want to do right now is to wake up my peacefully sleeping girlfriend next to me, just because I'm most likely overthinking everything again.
I press my hand against my mouth in an attempt to clam down and maybe stopping my tears from streaming down my face. Asking why? I was thinking about the future because i finally got the acceptance letter of my appreticeship and then went to TikTok. However there i saw something that lead me down the spirals of dark thoughts. Now i can't get the thought of my lover leaving me behind and breaking up with me out of my head. You see the thing is, she is my rock and i really need her in my life.She makes me a better person and whenever we are toghther it feels like we are unstoppable. We have been together for about a year now and i really feel like she is the one.
My thoughts once again slip up and i see all the worst case scenarios playing in my head. A sob rips from my thoat and suddenly i cant stop anymore. I feel the sheer amount of emotional pain.

I dont know when exactly my girl woke up, but all i know is that she is suddenly talking to me in a calm and slightly sleepy voice "hey,... hey... bunny, whats wrong? Shhhh here come here baby..." she opens her arms and i fall against her chest and hold onto her sleep shirt like my life depends on it.
She slowly closeses the hug "Tight or loose?" I try to speak but for some reason my voice fails and all that comes out is a broken sob. "shh bunny, its ok i'm right here okay? Squeeze me if you want a tight embrace my love?" I bring out all my strength and squeeze her slightly. She immediatly catches on and brings me in a tight and comforting hug. While slightly rocking back and forth she whispers comforting words and reassures me that its ok.
After a little bit i started to calm down, a wave of embaressment washed over me. I quickly wiggle a little out of her embrace and stutter an apology. However i wasn't even finished with it when she takes my face in her hands and carefully wipes away my still falling tears. "No, don't apologize bunny. I'm sure you have your reason. Do you want to talk about it baby? Its ok if not." I take a deep breath in attempt to not start sobbing again. "T-Talk" i whisper quitley. My girlfriend nods as a sign that she'll listen.
I take a few more breaths and search for the fitting words."I am scared that you'll leave me, that i am not good enough and... that I'll fail...I....I..." i start sobbing again and burry my face into my hands so she doesn't have to see me like this.
"Bunny... Baby... Look at me, please...." her voice seemed to be painfully aware and she slightly lifted my head up with the hands, that are still resting on my cheeks. I do as i'm told and look in her mesmarising eyes.
"Listen to me..." she puts a loose strand of my hair out of my face "You" she kisses my forehead "Are" a kiss on my nose "and always will" a kiss on both of my cheeks "Enough, bunny" she gives me a peck on the lips. My girls looks deeply in my eyes "You know, I am so proud of you. I'm so proud of you for waking up every single day and so proud of you trying your best everyday in the year. I love you so much. And i will try and stay with you my love. And if you would fail, thats ok. But the most important thing is that you try. Nothing is possible to be done perfectly, remeber that ok" I slowly nod and more tears start to stream down my face.
Like we both had the same thouht our mouths crash together in a sweet and soft kiss. When we pulled apart she kissed my closed eyes. "i love you more" i quitely mutter as my trears stop. She chuckles slightly "we will talk about this another time..." she yawns, "come here you should try and sleep baby"
I follow her into a cuddling positon with my head resting on her chest. As she whispers sweet nothings, she strokes my hair and gives me little kisses on my head. After all this crying my eyes got heavier and soon i fell asleep in the embrace of my lovingly girlfriend.

a/n.:
ok... i know i rushed in the end, but honestley i dont know how else to write it okk :')