Most days I'm able to set that night aside
But there are moments it creeps in
Sometimes it's the slight smell of Angry Orchard
Or a seen in a movie
But there are times it's just in my head
Always hiding in the shadow
And no matter what I do it can't be erased
It's a temporal anomaly inside my head
I'm forced to watch it over and over again
Each scene is displayed all around me
Like I'm trapped inside a box and it plays on every wall
There is no answer
No key or medicine to make it cease
Sometimes I'm left wanting
Wanting someone to talk to
It never feels enough
The ones I told...
They don't really see the pain
I'm forced to hide it all away
Keep it stuck inside my brain
But, Sometimes my heart skips a beat
And my breath catches in my throat
The panic attack settles over
And I wish someone truly knew
That I've never actually coped
I tucked it away
To save it for another day
And it intensifies day and night
But they can't tell I'm not alright
They see my pretend to be fine
It's getting harder to lie
To close my eyes and force back my own cry
And my lips are raw from each time my teeth find the skin
It's hard not to bite back my own emotions
But they will never see
They will never know
I sometimes feel I'm left on my own
To handle this weight
Without saying a word
Even though I've spoken once before
It never lifted off my shoulders
And each new thing seems to add more weight
Even the tiniest of pebbles
They add to the boulders
The ones rested upon my shoulders
But here I am
Smiling for today
Waiting for the sun to set
Where my emotions can finally be met
YOU ARE READING
The Unforgettable
Poetry⚠Caution advised before reading!⚠ Trigger warning. Poems of the unheard. For those who are victims of sexual assault, rape, being taken advantage of, and shamed. You are not alone, stay strong!
