"The world we know is gone. But keeping our humanity? That's a choice."
"You drew stars around my scars, but now I'm bleeding"- Cardigan, Taylor Swift
The Walking Dead, Season Three, Season Four, Season Five, and Season Six
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I've counted the days it's January 26th 2012 today, it's funny to me how time goes by so slowly. Back in the world before the outbreak it seemed to me that everyday was a dream, going by quickly. But now everyday is a reality taking an eternity. So much has changed, where do I start?
In late July of last year I gave birth to a healthy baby boy and I named him Theodore, Teddy for short he's five months. Lucy is already one and she walking now, Blake is fourteen and Ellie is officially a teenager. I'm twenty one now, and in the old world it would be legal for me to drink, interesting. Anyway, Hayden and I are closer than ever, Molly has been very happy lately and we are all thriving. We even started a sort of school for the children and story times, I help Carol from time to time when I'm not busy being a doctor with Hershel.
Our prison has became a home, we took back the yard and most of the cell blocks. We have crops, plants, pigs, horses and chickens. We have shelters from the sun and kitchens out in the courtyard. Our numbers have grown widely and we have dozens of herbs and food. But with this the walker supply has increased, we have crews on the borders of the gates to keep the walkers from breaking through, but they pile up more and more each day.
We've gathered more and more things more guns, ammo, knifes, and other things that are more homey. We've made all our cells and everything like a home, a place to be safe. We have running water we have medical supplies. We are flourishing, and according to Beth it's been 30 days since a loss. Talking on a more upsetting note, we almost lost Casey she go sick and well she still is. Honestly I think it's cancer, my mom had it but she beat it so there's hope. Oh and Beth, Emma and Jessie have boyfriends now, it makes me honestly giggle.
Today Daryl, Glenn, Michonne, Hayden and some others are going out on a run, speaking of runs. Michonne has been out looking for well the Governor, who in fact vanished. I'm not complaining don't get me wrong it worries me if he might be getting an army or something. I think we'll all sleep better when we all know he's dead. Oh and for all the new people Rick brings in he asks them three questions. How many walkers have you killed? How many people have you killed? And why?
A bit dramatic you may think but they are reasonable and necessary. There's a lot of children and teenagers now so I don't quite feel alone in the fact of being one of the only mothers. I sit and listen to Carol read to the kids, after a man leaves Luke asks if he should take watch. Carol nods and takes out knives from her chest. This is her secret way of teaching the children defense, I stay and help because I have nothing against it. I mean Ellie and Blake know how to kill something in multiple different ways. Who am I to judge?
"Today we are talking about knives. How to use them, how to be safe with them, and how they could save your life." Carol says and Patrick interrupts, "Ma'am may I be dismissed. I'm not feeling very well." He lies and she scolds him about fighting through it. She lets him leave, and she begins the lesson then Carl emerges. "Please don't tell your father." She begs and I stand up adjusting my grip on Teddy.
