the one that got away ; jenyong

five

It's been weeks since the incident. The incident where I accidentally met Taeyong. And I haven't heard anything from him since then.

Well, of course, we met there and parted ways without even having a chance to exchange contacts. I thought at first it would be better for me, but now I realized there are no days where I didn't have a single thought about him.

My preparations for the marriage were doing well, but my thoughts were about something else.

"This color palette would be fine, right?" I quickly get my senses back when I heard a question thrown at me. I ran my eyes off the window and looked at Doyoung.

"What palette?" I asked him with a clueless look. "Jennie, I have been showing you colors that you would like to use for our wedding theme," Doyoung explained, showing the book of color palettes in front of me.

"Oh," I realized.

"I wish you pay a little more attention to me." Doyoung started his disappointment.

"I'm sorry, it's just I've been dealing with something for the past few weeks," I said, trying to explain myself. "I understand what you're going through right now, Jen. Should we postpone the marriage? I just don't want to make it harder for you."

"It's nothing huge enough, Doyoung. Stop saying something about the marriage postponement again."

The moment skipped, and I am now on my way home. After the meeting we had with the wedding planner just now, my mind felt burnt out.

These past few days, I've been feeling something very uneasy. I felt like I just wanted to quit everything. Everything I had in my mind. I was the one who refused to postpone the marriage and now I get to the place I wished I wouldn't have experienced at all.

I can feel a sense that this relationship I had with Doyoung is falling apart.

And that was the thing that I was afraid the most about.

I don't want to lose Doyoung, not in any situation.

I don't want to hurt him, not even a bit.

I continue to walk with this kind of mindset circling my mind. I looked around the empty and dark street to get something as a distraction. I know having this kind of mindset all over again will ruin everything.

I already have a promising future planned in my life.

Why am I still couldn't let go of the ruined plans I used to have in the past?

"Jennie?" I stopped walking as soon as I heard a voice calling my name from behind. I know that voice. I quickly turned, expecting my assumption about the voice's owner would be correct.

"Taeyong," I breathe.

Taeyong looked at me while wearing a slight smile on his face.

What is he doing here?

I've never thought I would bump into him again after the last it happens but here we are now, bumping into each other on the way home.

I guess we are just bound to see each other.

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15 years ago

I guess we are just bound to see each other.

I have been avoiding Taeyong these past few days. I have decided to get rid of this feeling as soon as possible. I realized the longer I held onto this feeling, the harder it will take for me to move on from him.