Chapter 10
"El?" Eleanor was on the other line with me, I could tell she knew I was crying.
" Whats wrong Darcy?! Are you ok." a lump grew in my throat as I tried to gather the strength to talk.
" The baby, I lost the baby." the words hurt as they came out of my mouth.
" Oh Dar it's ok honey." it wasn't ok, Niall was torn apart, I felt like I failed. Eleanor was trying to make me feel better , I could tell by her words. After a long phone call Eleanor hung up with me. As soon as I hit the end button , tears flooded my cheeks. I began to yell.
"Why!?" I held my knees to my chest. I was sitting on the bathroom floor but in this moment I didn't care. I stood up and walked to the sink. The small mirror above the sink had the reflection of a women, I knew it was me, but I had. Ever seen myself this way. My eyes were puffy, and red, my face was stained from where the tears had fallen down my face. I made my hands into a cup and splashed cool water on my face. I tried to collect myself as much as I could. I opened the door to the bathroom and saw Niall sitting on a bench outside the bathroom. He looked how I felt. I walked up to him and sat beside him, his hand found mine and we sat there in silence.
" Niall?" my voice was still shaky but I had to break the silence.
" Yes Princess?" Niall looked up and his eyes met mine.
I leaned in and gave him a soft kiss, a stray tear rolled down my cheek, I stayed close by his lips and rested my forehead against his forehead.
" I am sorry." I leaned back and looked at Niall.
" For what?" Niall was looking at me puzzled, it reminded me of the night I told Niall I was pregnant.
" I am never going to forget your face when I told you I was pregnant. You were so happy, your smile was so big and your eyes were so cheery. I ruined it. Niall what if I can't have babies?" my eyes were burning and I was trying not to look at Niall.
" Darcy! This is not your fault. If you haven't noticed already, I am not worthy of having you, you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen! Darcy. We are going to get through this together, I love you. Even if you can't have Babies I still have you. You light up my world." I could tell it pained Niall to see me this way but I honestly felt it was my fault.
