Mine [18+]

39

Xavier

Stella's words were stuck, repeating in my mind over and over like a broken record. The fact that she could openly admit to me that it was all my fault for getting her into the damn hospital, that it was my fault she got kidnapped.

A part of me knows she's right. That it is all my damn fault. But another part of me refuses to accept that. At the end of the day, I have tried to give her nothing but my undivided attention and my protection.

You did a fan–fucking–tastic job, Xav. Really. You've outdone yourself this time.

When she called me, I didn't pick up the first time. Her name appeared on my screen alongside a picture I took of her months ago. She only just woke up but she looked more beautiful than any other time with makeup on. She picked a fight with me that day, asking me countless times to delete the picture, even tried to attack me to grab my phone out of my hands and each time, I'd held the phone in my hand and grasped onto it like I was holding on to my own life.

I just sat there, staring at the picture before the call ended and hoped she'd leave a message on the damn voicemail she made me record. She didn't. She rang me again. This time I answered, only because I wanted to hear her voice, but now it was haunting me. Everywhere I turned, I could only hear her voice breaking as she asked me to come back.

I clutched the phone in my hand after and just sat in my car for the remainder of the day.

Ace called me multiple times too, but I ignored it. I knew for a fact he was gonna tell me to go back, but I couldn't. Especially not after I basically told Stella to go fuck herself by leaving.

Man, I fucked up, that's for sure.

I wanted nothing else but to go back and tell her how fucking sorry I am, and even though she asked me to come back, I wasn't sure just how true it was. I knew she'd rather have her own space and that's exactly what  I was giving her. I didn't want to intrude and push my way through only for her to realise it's too much and push me away.

The only thing I could do was leave and vow to never hurt her again.

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Stella

He never came back. I left him countless voicemails after he answered last, and even then, he barely said anything. Just asked if I was okay.

At this point, I was completely losing hope that he was going to return at all.

Ace came to pick me up. He told me that Xavier was just hot headed and needed a moment.

"He doesn't need a moment, Ace. He needs to come back and let me apologise to him properly. Not through the phone." I cross my arms across my chest as I look at him. He's holding my bag as I pack the rest of my stuff and he simply nods his head.

"I know and I get that. But we both know for a fact this relationship won't work out if you don't trust one another. If there's no trust, there's nothing."

I sigh. "Why are you always right about things?"

Ace chuckles and smiles. "Both of you would be lost without me and that's a fact." He picks up my bag and let's me follow him to his car. I look around the car park, hoping to catch a glimpse of the man I love, but nor him or his car are anywhere to be seen.

The drive back home is silent, nothing but the radio playing at a low volume. Ace is the first to break the silence, his question bringing back many memories I wish I could just forget.

"Are you still having nightmares?"

I don't answer for a while. In my head, I replay everything that happened over the last month and a bit. Garrett, his accomplice, the assault. How both Ace and Xavier tried their best to find me as soon as they could but even then it was already too late.

My hand accidentally brushes past my stomach as I go to wipe a stray tear and I look down, fighting all my emotions as best as I can.

"Everyday. If it's not about Garrett, it's about losing the baby..."

I hear Ace sigh as he stops at a red light. He turns to look at me. "Why didn't you tell him? Hell why didn't you tell me? You know I wouldn't have said shit to him, it's not my business. That's between you and Xavier, but why didn't you trust me enough to tell me? I would have done everything I could to keep you safe."

"It's not about that, Ace. I couldn't. I wasn't even sure I wanted the baby to begin with. I love him, Ace, but this baby would have probably caused more harm than good."

"What are you talking about? Do you not realise you are his everything?"

I lift my head, my eyes searching his face and I shake my head. "Clearly it's not enough if he was able to just up and leave like that." I turn away, wanting to end the discussion. "You're a good friend, Ace. But I don't want to talk about it. It happened, I have to deal with the consequences."

Ace starts driving again, and I look out the window noticing we're not far from the house. My stomach starts churning at the fact that Xavier might possibly be waiting for me right now. Will he want to talk or will he ignore me and pretend like I don't exist?

"I don't want to take sides, Stella, but you pushed him away in the first place. You blamed him for getting yourself involved with him and blamed him for the loss of the baby. You need to remember that he's not taking this lightly," He pulls into the driveway, as I see Bennett walking around to close the gate. He waves at me before turning back to the gate. Ace turns to me again, "This was also his baby. And by the looks of it, it seems like he really wanted it too. Love doesn't care about time, remember that." He gets out the car and leaves me with my thoughts as he grabs the bags out of the trunk.

He was right. I did blame Xavier. The only question I had to ask myself was if he was going to come back or leave me for good.

I get out the car, allowing Ace to walk in front of me with the bags as Bennett opens the door. I follow behind, my steps small as I feel like I'm walking into a house I've never been to before. And I finally see him. He's talking to one of his men, his hand resting on the gun in his back pocket.

That's when he turns around, his eyes meeting mine, and I feel like all the oxygen has been sucked from my lungs.

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Woah, new chapter?!

It's been a while, I've been pretty much working non stop and haven't found the time to update, but a new chapter is here now, and another on the way at some point during the next few days. Promise.

Enjoy!