Mine [18+]

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Stella

He was here, and he was looking at me as if he's never seen me before. I couldn't tell whether I wanted to run away from him or to him, telling him how sorry I was, or telling him to just leave me while he still has the chance.

I see his hand clench into a fist, almost as if he was stopping himself from running to me and scooping me into his arms. He shakes his head, mumbling something to himself as he looks up to the ceiling and closes his eyes.

Then, he's gone.

I frown, looking at Ace who just wraps an arm around my shoulders and pulls me into his chest. I smell his perfume, a mix of mint and sandalwood and I clench my own fist, noticing how Xavier has the same exact perfume in the bathroom upstairs.

"Go get some rest, Bellissima. I'll go talk to him." He gives my shoulder a soft squeeze as he leaves my bags in the corner and walks off after Xavier.

I take a deep breath in, a rest being the last thing I'd want to do in this situation but I decide to follow Ace's instructions and go upstairs. The ride in the lift takes longer than it ever did, and I'm starting to feel like I'm suffocating in my own body.

The first step towards the bedroom was the hardest. Knowing this is where we pretty much spent most of our time was even harder now knowing that Xavier was only down a floor.

I take one look at the bed before deciding against actually taking a rest and wandering around the entire compound, trying to find Xavier. I even take the elevator down to the garage, noticing his car gone before I realise that he left and I wasn't sure whether he'd even come back for the night.

So this time around, I follow Ace's instructions and get into bed, crying softly into the pillow. I cry over the fact he's not here. I cry over the fact that I was the one that caused this issue. I cry over all the damage that Garrett caused. I cry over the loss of the baby.

Mine and Xavier's baby.

Xavier

The entire compound was quiet by the time I got back. Apart from Ace screaming into my ear about how much of a fuckup I am.

"Ace, I beg you, shut the fuck up. And you know I don't beg. So please, get out of my sight." I rub my temples as if that would ease the headache coming on.

"I'll shut up when you tell me that you are going to go and apologise to Stella. She's a wreck. She needs you right now and you're acting like a dick."

God, I wanted to punch him.

"That's why I'm here! I'm here because I can't live without that girl. She's everything to me, Ace. Everything!" I sigh, pinching the bridge of my nose and look at him. "Thank you for taking care of her, but I'll handle this now. It's between me and Stella, you don't need to get yourself involved anymore. I'll fix it, just let me do it my way."

Before he could say another word, I walked into the elevator and went up to our room. It was dark, and silent, apart from the small slither of moonlight coming in through the window and her soft sighs while she slept.

Fuck, she was beautiful, and I had to fuck it up. Why didn't I stay? When she needed me the most too?

I walk into the bathroom, splashing some cold water on my face before walking back out and taking off my clothes. I climb into bed beside her, noticing her face stained with tears that have already dried up and I kiss her forehead softly.

"I'm so sorry, mi amore. Per il dolore che hai provato a causa mia. So che non posso portare indietro ma ti prometto che farò tutto il possibile per aiutarti a uscire dalla tua sofferenza. Your pain, is my pain. You mean the world to me and I will do anything to help you see that. Ti amo."
(For the pain you felt because of me. I know I can't take it back but I promise I will do everything I can to help you out of your suffering.)

I let out a sigh as I wrap my arm around her, bringing her body closer to mine. I close my eyes, focusing on her breathing, allowing it to lull me to sleep.

As soon as dawn arrives, I can no longer sleep. Stella's body is still wrapped around mine, she hasn't made a move to get away, which I guess was a good thing. But I wouldn't truly know until she woke up.

I watch her, as dawn turns into morning and I still can't take my eyes off her as time goes on. I look down at her sleeping figure, my hand moving to her stomach involuntarily. I trace circles, letting my hand massage what could have been our baby but is now an empty space.

It made me wonder whether Stella would want to try again in the future, whether she'd be strong enough to handle the trauma she went through and give life to another baby.

But that was for another time. Right now, my biggest priority was Stella and fixing my mistakes, hoping she won't keep me begging for another chance for long.

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New chapter finally!! Lots of stuff happening and still a long way to go, get ready for a rollecoaster of emotions. It's about to be a crazy ride (it's already crazy but you know what i mean).

While I'm here, I wanted to let you know I have a new book in the making, called Bound in Flames.

A dark, forbidden romance with loads of smut (obviously). Go give it a read, it would make me extremely happy.

If anyone is willing to make me a cover for the book, I'd be extremely grateful, and of course you'll get a dedication in the book.

Thank you for reading my work, it means a lot.

Enjoy!