A/N: I want to cry so ima write some angst, Christmas gone wrong. Lol I might continue the story later. Anyway I'll see if it made me cry writing it. Also the story starts off with George pov but I'm too lazy to write it.
First ever TW??
Knife/blood, self harm
I don't know what I'm doing so hopefully it's good, I have NOT done any of the things and am NOT recommending them.
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Today was supposed to be a joyful day, filled to the brim with happiness. But no. He had to ruin it for me, no one will know why I hid in my room most of the day, only coming out for lunch after I went to it during breakfast. He caused me not to eat dinner that night, he was the reason I cried myself to sleep. He hurt me, and I don't think he could ever repair the damage he did. I want to move back to England but I don't want to hurt their feelings, unless it's his, I want him to feel the pain I did when he said it. Ok maybe I should step back so you know why I'm so hurt.
Today was Christmas morning, I awoke to the smell of pancakes and cookies, I got dressed and went downstairs to see Dream and Sapnap whispering to each other,
"Hi" I say, they turn around,
"Hi" Sapnap and Dream say back, I go into the kitchen and grab my plate then go back to the couch area where we normally eat.
"Hey George me and Dream have a surprise for you" Sapnap says, I tilt my head to one side in confusion, "I'll tell you after I eat, mkay?"
"Mhm" I say, eating my food. Once I finish I sit back down.
"Ok I know Dream though you weren't ready to know yet but, me and Dream have been dating for around three months now" Sapnap says, I feel my breath hitch, three months? I think.
"Sorry about not telling you" Dream says,
"It's fine, I'm going to film a video in my room now" I say, holding back tears, I go up to my room and try to act normal, three whole months and he didn't say anything? I continue to think.
I feel my head getting dizzy, todays Christmas, I can't just let myself go downhill from some stupid thing. I've been clean for almost a whole three months now... three months, when they started dating I stopped. Maybe they wouldn't notice and I can get away with it? No they would, but Dream wouldn't care if I wasn't clean, he's too busy with his little boyfriend Sapnap. I think.
I go to the bathroom in my room and make sure both the bedroom and the bathroom doors are locked, I go to the small cabinet and pull out the small shoe box. I grab the first one I see, ugh this was the one I used last time and it almost left a scar I think, oh well.
I bring it up to my skin and push down slightly, I suck a bit of my breath in and push down harder. I see the dark red liquid start to form a bubble around the cut before it spills out, I grab a red wash rag I have and put it underneath my arm. I know blood is hard to get off the floor so I'm being careful so they don't know, I move to another spot and repeat the action, more blood spills out. I then continue until there is nowhere left to cut, it distracts me from my worse thoughts at least. I bandage the arm up so that way I don't pass out and die yet and move to my other arm, I move the towel underneath and get ready to cut, right before I do I hear a knock on my door.
"Hey George, you ok in there, it's not like you to just lock patches out." Shit, it's Dream.
"I'm fine, just tired" I say with the same old excuse as alway, I'm tired, tired of living.
"Ok, tell me before you resort to cutting again, I don't like seeing my friends getting hurt" he says, friends, friends that's all we are and all we will fucking be, never boyfriends just friends. If I died now he wouldn't give a shit. I thought.
"O-ok, I will" not like I haven't already.
"George, please tell me you didn't already start" Dream says, I can hear the worry in his voice
"I would never" I say sarcastically, shit shit shit, why the fuck did I do that, now he's gonna burst in and see me like this. I do have the power in this situation though. I thought
I hear my bedroom door handle wiggle until it opens, I see the door handle of the bathroom move, I begin to take my bandage off so I start bleeding again, I put the box in my cabinet and hid it. Dream wiggles the handle as I make another cut but this time in my other arm, Dream opens the door to see me cutting myself as my left arm bleeds.
"George!" Dream says sitting infront of me, he hugs me as I continue cutting myself, "why, why, why, why. why did you do this?" He continues, I feel his tears hit my arm, once they do the cuts begin to sting, I might just pass out from the pain, perfect, then he won't have to deal with my shitty problems ever again. I think.
He grabs my arm gently and carefully bandages the left one up again, he takes no notice to my cutting of the right one. He finishes my left arm and looks at my right, he gasps when he sees I'm still cutting it.
"George, please stop, I can't watch you harm yourself, if you don't want Sapnap to know then you need to stop." He says, I continue I want Sapnap to know, I want him to find out how much I like you. I think, Dream try's to move my hand away only for me to return to what I was doing only now I'm pushing harder.
Dream picks up his phone and texts someone, moments later Sapnap comes rushing in, he sees me looking at my arm, cutting it until there's no more skin left. He sits down in front of me,
"George, please stop, please" Sapnap says, I shake my head no and continue.
"George, please, I love you and Sapnap forgot a part of what he wanted to tell you" Dream says.
I stop and look up to see Sapnap crying and Dream who has dried tears and a worried look. Sapnap takes the blade from my hand and Dream takes my arm to wrap it. I begin crying, he probably didn't mean any of it and just wanted me to stop. I could ask though... I think.
"Dream?" I say,
"Yes George?" He answers, continuing to wrap my arm with bandages.
"Did you mean it?" I ask,
"Of course I meant it George" Dream replies, he finishes bandaging my arm. "Sapnap forgot to ask you. Do you want to be our boyfriend? It would be a three way relationship if your ok with it."
"If your not I can let you have Dream to yourself, it's fine. I can always find someone else anyways" Sapnap added.
I lean onto Dream because he's closer and I'm light headed from all the bleeding, "I would love to be both of your boyfriends." I say closing my eyes so I don't pass out. Dream wraps his arms around me,
"Can I kiss you?" Dream says,
"Of course" I say, he leans down and kisses me.
"What about meeeeeee" Sapnap whines.
"If you get closer then you can reach us" Dream says, Sapnap slides closer.
"You can kiss me if you want" I say, Sapnap leans over and kisses me.
We all just sit here for a while until Sapnap decides to clean up some of the blood that got through the cloth and my blade.
"Hey love, where dose this go?" He asks me,
"Just set it on the sink, I'll take care of it later." I reply, he frowns a bit then goes over to us and kisses me then Dream.
"I'm going to our room, if you two want to join me" he says,
"Do you want to sleep with us bubs?" Dream whispers, I nod my head and he gets up.
"Hey Dreamie, I can't really stand up on my own well." I say, he helps me up and we walk to the room.
We enter and see Sapnap on the bed, Dream helps he get on it and Sapnap turns around and hugs me, Dream gets in on the other side and hugs me too. We all fall asleep together.
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Ok I'm sorry, I couldn't just kill George like that, it would be rude. Anyways thinking about making an actual book, like one that the parts are creating a storie. Thoughts?
Don't die please,
-Dazy
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FanfictionLol I got fed up with my fam so I wrote some of this
