Dream team and a few more

Good enough 🖤 Karlnapity

TW: ED, mentions of abuse, panic attacks, self harm

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Quackitys pov:

I looked at the ceiling, tears in the corners of my eyes, not from sadness but from pain, waiting until hunger leaves me. I waited and waited for what felt like hours until it was gone, I stood up, only seeing some black. I walked to the bathroom and got a glass of water, I looked into the mirror and saw him, what I once thought was me. Now it's only a shell of me,

'I need to go back' I thought, my boyfriends have worked to try and understand me but they fail, that's what makes me try harder to be perfect for them. I need to be perfect for them. I go downstairs to be greeted by them,

"How's your nap hun?" Sap asked me, I told them I was taking a nap,

"Good" I lied. I went over to sit with them, hoping they wouldn't mind like he did. I sat on the couch by Karl who instantly grabbed onto me and dragged me over to cuddle with them. They put a movie on but I was to busy drowning in my thoughts. (sometimes it feels like that tho)

'He's going to hit you if he gets mad'

'What would they think if you left everyone and everything'

'They probably wouldn't notice'

'I'm 13.8% more likely to die on my birthday, it's not that far away now that I think about it'

'How long have I been clean for'

'I'm not sure but if I ask they will know something's up'

'I'll never be good enough for them'

Then there was a crash in the movie, I hadn't noticed but they had put on the conjuring, (I'm 23 minutes away from finishing that and have been for a month I also keep spelling it with an o instead of a u) I look up and see a girl banging her head on the closet in the other girls room. I'm half tempted to flip her off but I don't.

We finish the movie and I go upstairs to shower, I start the shower then start searching for my blade.

'Fuck, where did it go" I think, I feel my breath quicken as I continue to search.

I find it and a washcloth that I use to clean up when I'm done so they don't know,

'It's only been a week' I think,

'I can get that amount of days again easily'

I grab the blade and put it to my wrist, I feel the coolness of the metal touch my skin, I let my thoughts wander.

'They didn't want you to watch with them'

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'They only let you stay because they felt bad'

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'You'll never be good enough for them'

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'They won't care if you died right now'

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'Hell, they wouldn't even notice'

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I feel tears start streaming down my face

'Your fucking pathetic for crying' I think

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'What would he think of this'

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'He would enjoy this'

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'I'll never be good enough for them'

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I looked down at my arms and saw just how much I actually did, I feel my breaths start to shorten, my hands start shaking as I drop the blade. I curl up into a ball in the corner and continue to cry, I hear people talking outside the door but I can't understand them or who it is. I start to cry harder. I begin to feel light headed as the world goes black and I pass out.

Karl pov:

After the movie Quackity says he's going to go upstairs and take a shower, me and sap nod as he walks up the stairs. I go over to sap and grab his waist,

"Hey Sap" I say,

"Hmm?" He hums in response,

"Do you think we should take Quackity out individually, I feel like he's spiraling again" I say,

"Of course love, ask him first because it was your idea" Sap responds kissing me on the head, we just kinda chat for a bit until I start to get worried.

"Ima go check on him, he's been in there for a while" I say, Sap just nods. I go upstairs to check up on Quackity,

"Hey bubs" I say, no response.

"Quackity?", again no response, I start to get worried.

"Hey Sapnap" I yell so he can hear me, I hear him run up the stairs,

"What?" He asks,

"He's not responding to me, and the door is locked" I say, tears pricking at the corners of my eyes. I see Sapnap grab the pin to unlock the door, he opens it and the first thing we are met with is out lovers blood.

"QUACKITY!" I whisper yell, knowing if he was conscious he would be scared. I look around the room and spot him in the corner.

"Sap get the bandages" I say grabbing Quackity from the corner, I lay him down and look at his cut up arms. Sapnap gets back in with the bandages and I start to disinfect the cuts, once I finished wrapping him up I take him to the bed, leaving Sap to clean up the mess. I lay him down and look at him,

"It's not only your fault Karl, it's mine too" Sap says walking into the room,

"I could have checked on him earlier" I say.

"Let's get some sleep" Sap says,

"I don't know if I can" I say,

"Then try" Sapnap says, holding the injured boy, I go over to him and wrap my arms around his waist.

"I love you both so much" Sap says,

"I love you both too" I say,

"I love you too" I hear Quackity mumble, I let out a sigh of relief and let sleep consume me.

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This probly sucks, I'm not motivated to write recently and wattpad keeps saying I have another version of this saved. Its annoying but I finished. I may or may not post more, I have a lot of homework and stress.

Ik I said I'd do a pronoun thing so ya,

I use almost all pronouns, just not he/him or other masculine feeling pronouns.

-Jupiter 💖