Eventually, A Year Before Now Book 3

Self-love before loving you

I always loved my mind because she could think so quickly on her feet and never missed a puzzle piece to make a bigger picture of her dreams come true and I always loved that about myself because her words were always more than just dreams.
My best personal qualities are, writing and the ability to tell a story about my life and experiences that way one day in another life when I look back at all of my past that is left behind, and the present that is like a gift of reality, and the future that makes me anxious on what is to come but I know that it is something great and I am here for it when it decides to open up its doors. Another personal quality of mine is, being to have a good eye of photography and make my book covers with an artistic ability I never knew I had and also coming up with stories related to my personal experiences and just being able to be myself without any question because this life story is titled me.
My favorite physical traits of mine are my hair, because, I love that I wake up in the morning and touch a part of me that is from my family and not have to forget my roots even though it may just be hair, it is more than that to me and I will always find beauty in the curls even though sometimes I am met with spilt ends, and from not loving braids from when I was little because it was hard to untangle them I now find love in the braids and being able to keep my hair from getting tangled.
I am proud of myself for being able to pursue my passion for writing even though in college it is a different story and I am not able to express my true identity through writing I am still very grateful that I can switch from being a psychologist major to being just Kaylee the writer and not Kaylee Sullivan at school.
I feel the sexiest when I am in the shower because there is just something about the hot water that soothes all my worries and I feel so refreshed to take on the day and even get some time away from the workload of life it makes me feel fulfilled knowing that I can take some time away from my busy schedule to relax and refresh for the days to come.
I am treating my body with love and respect by taking some time for me and focusing on my mental health and also getting some time to rest and recharge before the day so that I am focused and ready to go.
In a situation where I really shine is my writing because that is the key point to unlocking everything about my life and getting to the root of how I am feeling and whatever emotion is taking over me that day I can have a platform to set my mind free.
One of my happiest memories is, being in high school and seeing all of my friends and cherishing the moments that I had with them while I could and even though we all seemed to part ways I still hope when the time comes, we will find way to reconnect with one another at some point in time.
I believe that I make others feel comfortable and happy to be themselves even if at times I may be an intimation for them. I always try to make them feel included and open up to them in time at least when I am sure I can trust them.
I think I could show my inner child more love by listening to music while doing work and also still taking time for my creativity and allowing myself that hour or two to work on something besides schoolwork.
I need to forgive myself for being gullible and letting others have their way with me and not really standing up for myself but just trying to keep the peace in the situation but I still believe there is a time and a place to just talk about it.
My self-care routine is every morning I will get up from bed and try and make myself write and unleash my mind for the day and let my thoughts take over and not just go on my phone and look at emails but making sure I have my breakfast in the morning as well.
I can love myself unconditionally by continuing to grow and chase after my dreams and still making time for writing because for me that is the best medicine I could ever ask for.
I feel my happiest when I am sitting down and writing stories and if I am not doing that then I love to listen to music and watch YouTube videos.
I can create more time for myself by not rushing to get something down but to go at my own pace about certain things in my day-to-day life such being the case about school.
What makes me feel the most loved is my writing and knowing that I am not just creating stories but that I am building own portfolio of life experiences and accomplishments that have gotten me through some tough times in my life and knowing that no matter what it can get better.
Self-love means to me that you have to love yourself before you can show that love to someone else such being the term self-love which means to show how much you love yourself.
I think people will remember me for my writing and if anyone can see this just know that all of my stories come from experience and I am grateful that you all could be a part of this writing journey with me and a special thank you to my best friend who has always been there with me and never left my side even though we are not in the same place with each other right now just know that I do love you and I never blamed for anything that happened I know that in high school it was not your fault and that you did have a lot of growing up to do but no one exactly made it easy on you so if one day you read or come across this chapter just know that you were always my best friend forever and I hope that you won't forget that.
My self-love language is words of affirmation and physical touch but mostly it would word of affirmation because I love to write stories and include certain people in my life into those chapters.
I have grown as a person through the experiences I have gone through and even though I never have opened up about some of those things I have been through so much my writing has saved me through those dark days.
My self-love affirmations that I can repeat to myself every day is:
Devotions
life quotes
music lyrics
dreams
story quotes
The best compliment I ever received was when someone felt inspired or thankful for something that I had written in one of my blog posts when I was participating in a prompt. This compliment made me feel complete like I had written something meaningful and everyone else could see what I was feeling and liked what I had written.
I am really good at writing in general and making others connect with my life experience and feel the emotions through the words.
My five things I am passionate about are:
- Writing
- Dreams
- School
- Future
- Achievements
My perceived weakness is not knowing when and how to say something when a situation occurs. It is strength because whatever I cannot seem to say I can add as a chapter in my stories of what are my thoughts?
I can set boundaries for myself by not allowing anyone or anything to put me in a certain situation that is going to cost me a consequence.
10 songs that make me feel good about myself are:
- Pregame by Niki Demar
- 25 by Niki Demar
- Paralyzed by Big Time Rush
- Fly by Maddie and Tae
- Falling for you by Ashanti
- Mars by Brittany Underwood
- One day at a time by Cody Longo
- You've Got This Hold on Me by Cassidy Ford
- When I Look at You by Miley Cyrus
- Do It by Becky G
My biggest achievement is being able to finally share my stories with my blog and with other platforms that allow me to share my life and to be myself and not have to hold anything back whatsoever.
It would feel wonderful if I could always write and not be anything else because that is where my true self lies inside the chapters of my life stories.
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