KIND

I sink in sea, a pool, or ocean

Love can't find me

With hands so blue

You won't recognize me

Dear love wrapped in chaos,

I write every day to you,

For you,

And you still hurt

Lily, not roses,

I am familiar but different,

I choose you, not her, not him,

And you slip a blade in my hand

She has red blush,

I am close to a cadaver,

So you like roses over lilies,

I embrace end over living

Silk yellow or cream cotton,

Bring anyone,

I won't take it to the sky,

It will burn with me, just like you

Yes, you, the love, the chaos,

You, the hell to my heaven,

You, with a punctured heart,

You who took blood from my beating heart.

The humming wouldn't stop.

The rush, too loud, too much

Dear chaos,

I want to end this humming silence.

Miss me or not,

I will do so with love pouring from above,

I will be your sky

I will be your gruesome affair with the earth