I look into the beautiful brown eyes of my baby boy with a heavy heart.
Im a single mom no job, no car.
How can I raise you to be the man God want you to be.
I try to smile at his gorgeous cute face but the guilt in my heart won't allow that of me.
I failed you my son I whisper to him
I couldn't even choose your father right,
he goes more then he comes
missing months of your precious life.
I failed you my son I weep
tears blinding my sight.
He smiles up at me
cooing what I think would be mommy itll be alright.
But in my heart I don't know if thats true,
I would jump off a tower if it wasnt for you.
End the pain, but what would you gain?
You would be mommy and fatherless.
My life is so sad that I dream its not real.
But you bring me hope something to feel.
Something to hold on to.
Something to keep.
Something in sight.
Something in reach.
You deserve more then what Ill be able to do.
My son I failed you
I feel like
I failed you.
