First for Everything

New Year

TW: Bipolar depressive episode

     Jordan and I meet with Val at the bar while Ezra follows close behind. Jordan steps behind the bar to greet Val while Ezra and I stand on the other side of the bar top. Val meets my gaze and pours me a whiskey on the rocks. 
"Is this something you really want?" I look down at the whiskey glass.
"I'm attracted to you... I told you I wanted to Dom for a while and I don't want to fully let go of being submissive. I want to be able to do both and I think this would be good practice," he speaks quickly as if he's nervous which is quite cute.
"Um well, thank you, I think you're attractive too. I'd like to discuss this in greater detail later on, sound good?" I respond thoughtfully
"Yes, that sounds great," Ezra responds looking back to Jordan who winks.
     Valen and I walk into the kitchen together before opening for the night. Valen wraps her arms around my neck and I pull her legs around my waist.
"What is this all about?" I laugh slightly at Valen as she attacks my neck.
"Horny," Valen sucks onto the spot behind my ear and I moan slightly when she nips at it. Gently licking the bite mark and smiling.
"I can see that," I laugh and tighten my grip on her ass.
"So mouthy.... I like it when you moan, when you slide into me and let out a moan like the cock is attached to you and my pussy's just that good," Valen whispers in my ear.
"Yeah?" I kiss Valen gently and I feel her hand move down to my center. She rubs there gently and it doesn't feel bad physically but I feel disgusted with myself. "Marble," I feel myself take a deep breath as she removes her hand. I look up at an almost tearful Valen
"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry. I don't want this to end," Valen chokes on a sob and tears run down her face. "Jordan's gonna hate me, they spent so long on my makeup and I ruined it!"
"No baby, Jordan's not going to be mad, they just want to know you're okay," I lift her onto the counter and wrap my arms around her. "And it's not going to end unless you want it to sweets. I love you. It's gonna be okay, we're gonna get through this, you're okay" I rub her back.
"But you won't let me please you, what if you just leave because you don't like me anymore. I don't want you to leave, you can't," Valen begins to cry harder.
"Baby, I'm not leaving. I love you. I don't need you to-"
"I need you! I want you to need me too, I want that. Why don't you need me?" Valen cries even harder, shit.
     I smile, "I need you in my life, in my arms, but I don't need you to touch me like that to make me satisfied sexually. I love you. I love fucking you, I love marking your body, and I love it when you mark me too. I love everything about you. You're so sensitive to how everyone else feels even though you pretend to be a badass with no feelings, and you're still a badass. I love how you smile when you're angry and sad, and happy. I love learning what each smile means and I'm never going to stop learning about you. I love you so much," I kiss her forehead trying to calm her down, it works slightly but she's still visibly upset.
"I love you too," Valen chokes on her breath and I straighten her shoulders, breathing calmly and checking her pulse by touching the space in the crease of her elbow, my other hand touching her face and wiping away her tears. I kiss them away gently receiving a laugh from Valen.
"Are you okay if I take you upstairs with me?" I ask gently against Valen's forehead.
"Yeah." I take a paper towel from behind her and wipe away her smeared make up.
"Okay, I'm gonna pick you up if that's okay?" Valen nods and I lift her up and carry her out, heading to our old room, I'm keeping it here just in case, but it doesn't have enough space to continue living there.
     When we get there I send a quick text to Jordan, even though they saw us leaving I just wanted to explain what was going on. I lay with Valen on the bed and just hold her for a while, setting an alarm for when the club would be opening. Valen has suffered with her bipolar disorder for most of her life, even though Valen takes her meds regularly sometimes she still experiences symptoms.
 

   When the alarm goes off I gently wake Valen. Valen gets up and hugs me tightly I ask her if she's up for the party and she responds with tes. I hold her hips as she gets ready in the mirror and then we head out to the bar. There's more people here than typically but we find Jordan and Ezra fairly quickly. Ezra is at the bar with Jordan caged into the bar top.
"Ezra."
"Hey Elijah, sorry," he moves off of Jordan and Valen whines.
"But you guys looked so hot," I kiss her temple and laugh gently while moving her onto a barstool.
"You don't look too bad yourself," Ezra says and Valen winks at him and readjusts her dress. Attention whore.
      "Hey so I'm changing my pronouns... It's not a major change I just, sometimes I don't feel like I fit with being a man... I don't know. So I'm gonna go by he/they pronouns if that's okay," Ezra says and I look at them with curiosity, why is he asking my permission?
"Of course that's okay" I smile and pull Valen into my body.
     Jordan and Ezra get up and go to the dance floor. Jordan is grinding onto Ezra as they dance together, Valen and I take a seat facing them and watch while I trail my hand up Valen's thigh and then move my hand back down to pat her leg.
     Jordan gets more and more aggressive and turns around and bites Ezra's neck. I can tell Ezra has a verbal reaction as his mouth falls open and his eyes close. Valen kisses my neck and pulls me onto the dance floor and I hold Valen against my body.
     I reach down to Valen's thigh and gently lift her thigh as I kiss her, holding her up by her waist.
"Fuck baby, just want you to fuck me," Valen whispers as she leans her head back and sighs.
"Earn it," I let go of her thigh, kiss her neck and walk to Jordan and Ezra. Ezra lets out a small gasp as I grab his hair and turn his face to me and kiss him. He moans slightly and fuck do I feel good.
"Elijah..." I smile at his voice, he looks really good with eyeliner and I'm just now noticing the scar on their cheek. I kiss them again and this time I feel his arm at my waist pulling me into him.
     "You're very responsive," I pull his hair back slightly and he moans.
"Sonething about being dominated brings it out in me I guess," he responds as I kiss his neck. I lean up to his ear and whisper,
"You've seen nothing yet."

Sorry guys here you go.

January 29th, 2023