One thing about depression is that it kinda collapses time. Suddenly, you find your whole day blending together to create one endless and suffocating loop. And your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy.
DECEMBER 1ST 2022 11:20 pm
You were laying on the floor, one of the pills you had took finally caught up to you and came back to end you, you thought. Until you had seen Jenns feet at the door of your bedroom and running to you.
"Ma?? Mama! What did you do! No no no what did you do!" She panicked and cried. " I'm sorry I love you" I said before everything else she was saying was muffled and my vision went black.
DECEMBER 29 2022 12pm
When you woke up there was a person around you and a doctor looked at you and said "SHE'S AWAKE" while running out the room. Then a bunch of doctors came in "w-where am I" you said and mentally winced at the way your voice sounded.
"Ma'am you overdosed 5 weeks ago, and your girlfriend brought you here, Jennifer Carter?" She said and you didn't remember anyone of that name.
"I'm sorry I don't know who that is?" You said confused and the doctors looked at you sorrowful "ma'am your suffering from memory lost" the doctor said "but how, I remember my child hood, I remember everything" I said "are you only remembering bad things that happened to you or hood things"
The doctor asked and I thought back to everything and I could only remember the bad things, nothing good, no memories that ever brought me joy. "I can only remember bad things.." I said and I had tears in my eyes because what if I forgot the love of my life.
Then I looked up to see a tall dark skinned girl that looked like a stud and she had roses that were so vibrant and gorgeous and a pair of shoes that were pretty and nice and looked like my size
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