Kevin hadn't expected this question, but it would explain why Ian was traumatized, so he replied to him, hoping to learn more about his story : "I was 15 ... I was 15 when I decided to become an assassin.
The men I killed were all criminals, my world was much more corrupt than yours.
For me, even though there are conflicts in your world, it is still pure, evil doesn't appear everywhere like in my home world."
Ian nodded and told him honestly : "I'm just starting to accept what I have done … Liam helps me a lot with this, but he doesn't understand everything …
I was your age when it happened to me, the man my parents worked for tried to rape me and I disintegrated him with the particles of fire."
Ian waited for Kevin to figure out what that meant, or not, but he wouldn't tell him more if he didn't get what his true problem was.
And, when he saw Kevin frown before saying what he had hoped for, he felt relieved : "I see .. It's not just killing that bastard that traumatized you, it's your own power."
Kevin still didn't know much about their world but if Ian was only 15 when it happened, and that he could already see the particles of fire and use them, then it was something very unusual.
Ian nodded slightly, Kevin with only one sentence had managed to understand something that Liam hadn't been able to get.
He then decided to tell him what Liam had just revealed to him, which, without knowing, had frightened him even more : "It's Liam who saved me from the fire I created that day and after that he placed me under the protection of the Sun Sect.
Look, when we talked about it again two days ago, he told me how he found me ... It was the first time he spoke about it.
He told me that my body was surrounded by a shield of fire and that even he, who was already a legendary wolf at that time, had taken 5 minutes before he was able to destroy it."
Ian paused and then said : "Do you realize what that means, you have seen Axel fight before, haven't you ?"
Damn, Kevin thought, of course he had seen Axel fight and Axel had just evolved into a legendary wolf, whereas Liam had been one for several years already when he first met Ian.
Lot of questions were racing in his head so he asked him : "When Liam found you, were you unconscious ?"
Ian just nodded and Kevin then asked him : "Do you remember when exactly you passed out ?"
Ian frowned, but he knew that if anyone could understand him it was Kevin so he said to him, clenching his fists : "I remember seeing the fire particles appear all around me and not knowing what it was, I aimed them at this man, and when I saw the consequences of what I was doing, I tried to stop it but I couldn't do anything, it was like ..."
Kevin cut him and continued : "It was like you had become a spectator and no matter how hard you tried to regain control of your body it was impossible."
Ian looked at him surprised and asked him : "How do you know that ?"
Kevin just said to him : "Continue, I will explain to you just after."
Ian nodded and said : "I passed out right at that moment, I don't remember the fire I created and which has destroyed the mansion, or the shield Liam told me about."
Kevin ran a hand over his face and he chose to be honest with Ian as he had promised to him : "What you just described is what happens when a Warrior Spirit loses control because of emotions that are too hard to manage for him, in your case, it's easy to guess that it was fear ...
The problem is that it doesn't make any sense, a Warrior Spirit is above all a warrior, and you yourself told me that you are bad in fighting ...
There must be another explanation but I don't know which one yet ... Have you ever tried using your fire element again ?"
Ian nodded : "I tried again 3 times already, the first time out of curiosity, but it ended very badly, luckily every time I tried to use my fire element I went to the Wildlands.
So the first time at the beginning, everything was going well, but very quickly I lost control, the fire particles were like attracted like a magnet towards me, so I stopped everything but it was as if the fire particles that were around me were alive and doing whatever they wanted.
A giant fireball formed and destroyed the cliff that was right in front of me, after that I came back home and didn't try to use it for 2 years.
The 2nd and 3rd time it went exactly the same way, I thought that maybe by getting stronger I could control my fire element and finally use it, but it gets worse each time ... The attacks that I can't control also become more and more powerful."
Kevin was really startled and he asked him curiously : "Liam doesn't know about it, does he ?"
Ian blushed and confessed : "No, as I wasn't sure if I could control my fire element I didn't want to put him in danger, because I knew that if I told him what I wanted to do he would have come to protect me, just in case.
Every time I made these experiences when he was on a mission. And since I have used my Teleportation Talisman papers no one know about it,."
Kevin looked at him even more startled by this discovery and asked him : "Your Teleportation Talisman papers ... Are you crafting them yourself ?"
Ian nodded and said : "Liam got some copies for me from the library of the capital's Academy.
But it's really tough and I still can only craft the Teleportation Talisman papers from small distances.
They can teleport a maximum of two people and travel only on a distance of 500 km.
It's enough to go to the Wildlands, but not to help Liam on his missions."
Kevin couldn't believe that Ian was capable of doing Teleportation Talisman papers, and he dared to say that it couldn't help Liam in his missions, was it because his Teleportation Talisman papers weren't as efficient as the ones the Queen provided for Liam ?
If Ian really had an inferiority complex after everything he had just revealed to him, then something was wrong with him ...
But Ian was a smart, organized and rigorous person, so his problem was somewhere else.
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My Mage System (BL)
FantasyHe had been the best assassin of all time in his world and when he was finally killed, a goddess took the opportunity to send his soul into the body of a boy in another world who was weak for now but who was destined to become the most powerful mage...