To the Day When I Want to Run Away

Firmly and Slowly

I see a sword it is passed through me

but that didn't happen just now

it happened months and months ago

I guess I wanted to move on so I ignored it

No, it isn't painful now

to be honest it is kind of funny

it has been for so long

that I cannot even feel it

but yes, it started affecting my body

because I couldn't heal my wounds

and didn't ask anyone to infection started spreading

and my body started rotting

they said it isn't too late I can still be helped

Then why am I not feeling the urge

to save me and live happily?

why am I not getting tired?

or am I too tired to take it out

Do I not want to waste my energy?

or do I not have enough to take it out

Am I forcing myself to touch reality?

or am I lying to myself that "everything is just fine"

I couldn't ask anyone to understand me because they have

never seen it the only one I have to rely on is the person who

has put me through this because that person was standing with me

all along holding and pushing that sword firmly and slowly 

                               -Bhoomika Mehta