Love For... Three?! [Heikazuscara]

Ch 1

Scaramouche's Pov

"..What?....what?" he says in disbelief

"I...uhm..I'm saying I like you"

"..Are you serious?"

"....Y-yes.." I say quietly

He brings his hand up to cover his mouth

"...Oh my g-.." he whispers

Shit.. shit! I think I fucked up
"You.. don't like me back?" I say almost choking on my words

"No.. no sorry, wait. Please give me a moment" he sighs bringing his hand up to message his temple while closing his eyes to think

"Oh.. no, it's okay-" Shit "You don't have to say anything.. I get it"
Why the fuck would he say yes. Oh my god you are so fucking stupid
"As a matter of fact let's just forget this ever happened" I wince
You ruined everything! Why.. why why. Why would you even say anything about this..this stupid stupid feeling.

"No Scara wait.."

"No its fin-"

"Scara"

"..."

Please Kazu.. just get this over with. Can't you see how awkward I am right now standing here facing you? The uncomfortable, intense atmosphere around us? Just say no and let me go.. god I hate this. Who even created such a cruel feeling. Feelings actually. I feel horrible right now. A mix of emotions. It feels disgusting. Horrid, as if I could throw up at any given moment.

"..."

I hate this
I hate how I feel right now
I hate how awkward it is
how uncomfortable it is here
I hate how he's not saying anything
I hate how he has his eyes closed thinking hard about this
He's probably faking it
Possibly doing this on purpose
Feeling pitiful for me because he does not share the same feelings as me
I hate this so much
So much..

"Haa" I sigh

Well it is my fault that everything ended up turning out like this

"..."

I hate how pathetic I look standing here

Its so stuff here standing in a shallow alley way
God this was such a bad idea
And who the fuck even confesses their love in an alley way?!
Jesus..

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"....Uhm..I should just go..." I say slowly turning around

We have been standing here in silence for way too long

"I like you"

"....Wha-?" I quickly turn my head around

"I like you back"

"..Kazuha.. stop" I say my body now fully facing him

"No wait actually.."

"Look Kazuha, I'll just leave. We can just forget about any of this ha-"

"I love you"

What?

I feel a blush creeping up on my face

"..Stop" I say almost stuttering trying to cool down my face

He's just faking it

"What?"

"Look I'm giving you the option to just forget about this. Can we please just drop this so I can leave"
I want to go home. This is very uncomfortable. Well not that going home will help with anything, but at least I would be able to be in my room

"Scara, I love you"

"No, you don't"

"I thought you wanted me to love you back"

"Like, not love"

"So you only wanted us to be together temporarily?"

"What? No-!.. no"

"Then? Why won't you accept my love"

"..Because I am doubting it"

"Doubting what?"

"Your "love".. for me."

"But it's true"

"No it isn't"

"Who are you to tell me whether my love for you is true or false....Why won't you believe me?"

"You took quite a while just to say "I like you" to me as a response to my confession"

"Well I'm sure a lot of people have to think throughly about a love confession.. especially if its from their best friend. They don't want to ruin a good relationship that has been built with the one person they are the most close with. I'm sure you can understand what I am saying right now"

Of course I can you big dummy. This is why I gave you the option to just forget about all this and to walk away! I don't to ruin this amazing relationship we have built over the years! And yet I fucked it up. Why are we even still here talking about this? I want to go home, to my room and to just sleep this off. Ugh, this feeling.

I hate it

"Yeah.." I look down at my feet

I hear him getting closer to me

"Scara..I love you.."

No.. stop.. you don't
You're lying
That's not true

"Scara....S-scara?"

He's lying
Don't listen to him
Don't believe him
He's trying to trick you
...
Wait.. what? But Kazuha isn't this kind of person
He's a soft, quiet, kind-heart person

"..Scara... Can you look up please?"

He's trying to trick you

"Scara.. Scaramouche." he says more firm

I feel a cold hand against my chin

"Kuni.. look up."

Kuni?
When was the last time he said that?
Its been a while

I refuse to look up

"Haaa" he sighs deeply

He lightly grips my chin with his pale slim fingers and lifts my head up to make my eyes meet his

His red eyes
A lovely shade

It starts raining

"Kuni.. I really do love you"

I start to tear up

"I want to go home.." I whisper

I don't know if he heard me or if it was by queer(?) coincidence, he threw the jacket that he had around his waist on top of my head

"Wouldn't want you to catch a cold we would we?"

I blush lightly

"Come on, lets go look for a place to hide from this horrible rain. I'm sure everyone has left already"

YEAH YEAH YEAH
WOOHOOOO
HOW WAS THAT GUYS?
I proudly spent two days on that🤭
I think i did pretty decent
over 900 words🙀
I have SOO many ideas for this book
Im exciteddd!!!!