WHEN I'M WITH YOU

WHEN I'M WITH YOU : PART 6

"Holy shit!" Lauren panted from underneath me, "Oh my fucking god!" she screamed, high pitched, like I fucking hate. So weird a screechy like the sound of the bed springs underneath us. To be honest I was just listening to the radio in the background, more interested in getting off than making sure she was enjoying herself. Why not? It's just sex. "Yes T! Right there T, right there!" she moaned, then gripped onto me, letting out another really annoying scream, before we both collasped and were still for a moment. "Wow, that was amazing!" she giggled cuddling into me. "Yeah...Great..." I mumbled, shifting a bit, I wasn't the cuddling type. "So TJ what now, wanna watch a or something?" she questioned, running her hands over my abs. "No, you better fuck off before my parents get home from work" I said. Lauren sighed, got out of bed and started dressing, I don't know what her attitude was for, she knew that when she came to mine after school there was no kissing, cuddling or watching films, it was a quick shag and go. She wasn't my girlfriend, so I didn't have to treat her like she was.

Once she was gone I just lay there, the radio guy talking about the weather or whatever. Truth is my parents weren't going to be home for two hours, there was plenty of time to watch some stupid film but I think you've got to actually like someone to want to cuddle up and watch a film with them, I don't like Lauren in that way, she's just some hot bitch that I can brag about to my friends. To be completely honest my parents would not care if they came home and found me screwing some girl, my dad had walked in on me getting a blowjob before and was actaully quite proud of me. Laughing about it with me afterwards and going on about how I had all the ladies in town under my thumb. I went for a shower, I was still pretty muddy from football practice. It was awkward to say the least, being on the same team as my ex-friend Tyler, who I had slept with last saturday. He was a good friend but I couldn't for the life of me work out why he was being a little bitch about the whole thing. It was a one night stand, he was stoned and completely up for it, i'd tried talking to him at school, even called him once, for me that was making an effort, but he didn't care so now I don't either.

I walked back into my bedroom naked, desciding to air dry in my warm room. I stood infront of my full length mirror, tensing my stomach and flexing my arms, watching the muscles bulge. Yeah, I was checking myself out, but to be honest you would too if you looked like me. ego, of course! But I had every right to be proud of my looks, sounds kind of sad, but to be honest, they're all I have. I climb into bed, still horny, I was never satisfied. I wish me and Ty were still getting on because that was probally the fuck i'd ever had, so warm and tight, and the way he moaned as I plowed him, so hot! I felt a stiring from down below, I shut off my dirty thinking as I couldn't be asked to jerk off. I got into bed, my head hit the pillow and I was out like a light.

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I strolled into school and down the corridors, every girl I went by would look at me and some of the guys would too. I smiled to myself, greeting everyone who called my name or said hi to me. "Kai! What's up you weren't in yesterday, you missed practice!" I said, walking into form early, ignoring the fact that Tyler was there. "Yeah, we were having a bad day so we just descided to go into town and have fun didn't we?" he answered, half to me and half to Eddie who nodded then cuddled back into Kai's arms. "Oh right..." I muttered and sat down. I don't know why but for some reason when I saw them cuddling I got this sick feeling in my stomach, but I wasn't disgusted I was more...fuck it, I don't care. The day was a normal shitty day, I never payed attention in class, I didn't actaully need to, my dream was to become a footballer or a sports teacher, and I did well enough in that lesson, so I was pretty much sorted.

"Come to the park after school with us all" Kai said, as we were sitting in afternoon form. It was cold but I was always up for going out with everyone. So once the bell went and we were all released from school everyone casually made their way over to the park and sat down. We were all mucking about and talking, but as the sun went down and it got even colder something changed inside me. I watched Eddie and Kai snuggle together for warmth, I also watched Harry, Robbie and Dan doing the same with their girlfriends. Lauren wasn't there, Tyler wasn't with anyone but seemed fine on his own. I don't know why but I felt a sense of longing, something I haven't ever felt. "I have to go!" I stated, standing up quickly and walking away, not even waiting for anyone to say goodbye or ask why I had to go. I heard a few of the girls talking, sounding confused, and Dan calling me back, but I didn't want to sit and be around all their lovey dovey shit.