Soulmate AU (Simon "Ghost" Riley x Reader)

Past Lives

Soulmate AU: Heterochromatic Eyes

Idgaf if y'all complaint about me giving Ghost hazel eyes. Your stuck with it babes😚
Hopefully y'all like this cuz this took me days. DAYS. I can't exaggerate that enough.
4k words(a couple swear words).
Can you guess the song by the title???
I can't write accents for the life of me. I'm sorry😭

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Your tongue began to curl against your teeth as you swirled around the glass of wine, the bitter sweet taste and the warmth that filled your stomach only made your tongue dry for more. You hummed along to the music that played in the background, taking another gulp before being pressured into another. You were on your second glass and still found no end to the pounding thoughts in your mind.

It seemed all your friends had found their soulmates, and you were stuck in between never knowing and simply not caring. You hated the envious feeling when you would see them, it made you boil in anger and resentment from how it was a once in a lifetime opportunity. It was simple to know when you found your soulmate, but also difficult and you had yet to find them.

You looked into the reflection in your glass of wine, fighting the urge to chug the rest of it. The faint reflections showed the different eye colors you had, one being a dull (e/c) and the other being sprouts of greens and browns. Whoever your soulmate was, they had such a unique eye color and yours most likely made them unhinged with how dull your eye color was. You sighed deeply, taking another big gulp of the dark red liquid. Feeling a chill run up your spine as you topped off the glass for the third time.

It was hard to describe how you felt about Soulmates. You didn't want to love someone just because the universe wants you to be with them, having the choice was part of being human and not having that option in this world just made you annoyed. They could be a murderer, a self centered asshole, emotionless or possibly someone you couldn't even speak too both through words or hand signs. But that mystery is something you wanted to solve, knowing they were going to be the love of your life.

"You'll find that they are perfect in every way. That's why they're your soulmate." That's what your mom would tell you, over and over again, and you still didn't seem to understand it. It's hard to picture meeting someone for the first time and instantly clicking but you were so sure; Your mom and dad seemed deeply in love, and their story is just like every one on the planets.

"We ran into each other on a whim, it was like fate." Surprisingly, that what's your dad said to you, like it was so simple to understand. But you didn't want that, you wanted to be able to choose if they were truly the one for you, and you've seen your mom and dad have their differences but that didn't make them love each other less. No matter what they always made up, and you dreaded ever feeling something like that. You couldn't commit to someone just for something to happen to them, and it's harder when that happens. You've seen instances where the soulmate had passed on. It took years or even months when another color would swarm their grey eye like the universe could just simply conjure up someone else to be their so called "soulmate." It just didn't make sense to you, why would you have a soulmate when they could simply leave the earth and you'd have another the next day like the first one meant little to nothing.

"It's not unusual but it is rare when something like that happens (y/n). It won't happen to you." Your grandma said it so lovingly after she lost her husband, then sits there with her "soulmate." You hated every sickening second of weekends you'd spend for family gatherings, watching as your grandmother smiled and laughed like she hadn't lost a part of herself, like the tears she'd cry when she thought no one was around would make it any easier to accept her new husband. It's moments like those that truly made you fear your future love life.