Is it me

Part 23

Talone POV
I couldn't get out the bed for a whole week. The on,y thing that got me out of the bed today was going to see my best friend. This was mac's 3 time not coming home til the sun was up. Him and Devon were out smoking and drinking every night and avoiding everything and all their responsibilities. I was sad about losing my baby too and now me and Mac were ignoring each other for what reason I don't know.

I got to the mental hospital and signed in after waiting for 10 minutes they called me back I seen rain and hugged her. She seemed like herself this week.

Me: I missed you how are you ?
Rain: I'm better i stopped taking that medication they giving me so I'm back to normal so how is everybody doing, how is TT baby
Me: I lost the baby
Rain started to tear up "I'm sorry ta this is all fault"
I hugged her "stop it don't blame yourself I don't think I was ready to be a mom anyway" I sighed "I can't wait for you to get out of here" I said trying change the subject.
Rain: me too I might be getting out next week I been in my best behavior so I can get tf.
Talone: yeah come with me to stay with ms.ella for a bit
Rain looked at me confused "ms.ella? Why what's going on"
Me: the boys been so weird me and Mac ain't talked since I lost the baby he don't check in on me to see how I feel. They been out later and later I just can't do it. I wanna move into different apartments too.
Rain: yeah I'm done with Devon that was some weird shit he pulled and Mac is weird right with him why wouldn't he see how you feel after losing a baby
Me: I don't know man I just don't know

After talking to rain for a hour. I went back to mac house and over the next few days I started taking my stuff to ms.ellas little by little. It wasn't like he would be home to notice anyway.

~~one week later~~

I had been at ms.ellas in my old room for a few days now. Rain was getting discharged from the hospital in a few days and I was excited to see her we both needed a fresh start and a get away trip at this point.

It was 4am when my phone ringed. I ignored it and it ranged again

Me:hello
Mac: where tf is you at?
Me: why you ain't been caring
Mac: bring yo ass home now
I could tell he was drunk or something cause his words were slurring
Me: Mac get off my phone talking to me like that fr you got some nerve.
Mac: nah you tripping
Me: mac what tf are you talking about your drunk
Mac: nah I ain't drunk enough cause I still remember how you lost my seed
Me: why tf would you say that to me rn
Mac: wym it's yo fault I told you and you ain't listen
Me: mac really are you fucking serious. Why would you call me and do this right now . Even after you never checked up on me mentally but your calling me blaming me. I'm sad asf rn inform losing my best friend and my baby and you and Devon only care about drinking and clubbing. Fuck you. You are so fucking weird don't call me phone I'm done with you
Mac: talone
Me: NO FUCK YOU
I hung up the phone and turned over and cried my self to sleep I felt horrible I damn near wanted to admit myself in the same hospital rain was in.

Ms.ella came in and sat at my bed side and rubbed my back. She always knew what to do to get me together.
Miss ella: it's okay baby it's not your time it just wasn't in the good lords plan. Take some time to your self and get you mind right baby. It will all work it self out what is for you will be for you.

She was right I did need to get my mind together and take time to myself. Since I met Mac I was all about pleasing him I didn't take time to myself anymore. I need to get away for a bit but I couldn't without my best friend. Miss ella rubbed my back until I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up the next day in a better mood I was ready to get out and go do something for myself. I want to the mall to do some stress shopping and get my toes down and a deep tissue massage. After walking around for a good hour and buying more than I needed I spotted Mac and Devon at the food court. I really did not want to be seen by them cause I wanted to smack tf outta Mac right now in this present day. So I just hid in the cut. They were with a group of men and women smiling and laughing like everything is all good they must not be as hurt as they try to seem. Niggas man I should have just left his ass alone .

After my deep tissue massage I was headed out of the mall and to my car. As I was getting in my car mac and his friends were standing outside my car. I popped the truck threw the bags in and got in like I didn't see none of them standing there. Mac didn't say nothing either just looked at me so I guess it is what it is.