It starts as one.
A scare, so you go to the store and buy a test. Negative.
Years pass, and you want a positive, so you try your hardest. Negative.
Try again.... Negative.
And again.... Negative.
Negative, negative, negative. One after the other, the tests just keep piling up and piling up.
You see the look of despair in his eyes, knowing you are failing to give him what he wants. You can't even do the simplest of things and get one positive test back.
You go to the office. Get the test done. Negative. All this time, all the negatives, all made sense.
'it's impossible' is all you're told, and he is sitting right there to hear it.
He's going to leave you.
You know it's true, so you try to prepare yourself for the worst. But how can you prepare to lose your other half? How does anyone get over that.
