Before I start ANYTHING, I gotta thank my nigga thesilentpoeet AKA Coolidge, for inspiring me to come back onto WattPad. 🙏🏿
I'd forgotten how much I love writing.
& if you love it jus as much, don't you EVER stop writing till something breaks through.
Now back to the story.
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8 years later, I'm back with a brand new mindset.
Started with a dream of being more than just average with regrets.
Lookin back on all my posts, damn near looks like I had depression.
But when I read it, I see a young man who wanted answers to life, with this outlet being his expression.
I looked to the wrong niggas for help on how to navigate this difficult journey called "Life".
I'm on board, other niggas playin these games & losin each fight.
Spent 4 years in a voluntary prison where I had some time to think.
About how every choice I made lead me to accountability.
About how every person I came across taught me about boundaries.
& how to communicate my wants & needs with confidence.
How every action that you take always has a consequence.
How shiesty & cowardly I once was, very mentally disturbed.
My voice has power, & I'm now a man of my word.
I chose to bet on me & make a difference.
Focused on this music because I know I'm gifted.
Finally went to therapy to better understand my mind.
& how I need to think critical so I won't be surprised.
Surprised at niggas tryna play me, cause I ain't know no better.
Experience the best teacher, successes & failures I add both of em to the measure.
The opposite of hate is to give out some love.
2021, early June in New York, thoughts of me layin dead, my temple bleeding on the rug.
Self inflicted harm because I ain't feel shit, knowin I needed a hug.
Cryin my heart out to momma, knowin I needed that love.
& it was a Sunday, so the angels was watching over.
Knowing this breaking point would bring me closer,
To the one thing I knew I needed to understand:
Life is about people, relationships, & connecting with your fellow man.
Niggas told me "Pray To The Most High" above,
But I got faith in me, nigga, that's more than enough.
Terrible at relationships, cause I lost em all.
All the friends who I thought would have me whenever I fall.
Fell too deep in the pitch black, till I saw the light.
To show me who my REAL friends are inside my life.
I took some rare L's that only I could see.
Reinvented myself, Realest N. Breathin', the world calls me "Maãlík".
Reconnected with my niggas who reminded me of my roots.
I'm a different man now, I live my life in truth.
That's what I choose. 💯
- Maãlík
